Day 176

Today was awesome! Baby bought a new computer so we were able to Skype again and it was so good to see him! I hung out with a really good friend and she had a book I have been looking for for ages that she is letting me borrow to read so I am thrilled about that. I had to cancel some plans on some people and I feel really bad about it because I forgot I made plans on Saturday that cannot be changed and then I made plans to leave town on Friday and I had to cancel and I just feel horrible about it. But other than that little snag today was really good.

Baby, Im so happy I got to talk to you and see you and i am just so thrilled and excited and I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and do it all over again!

Day 175

I got the paperwork! It arrived in the mail today and I got it and sent it out again so we are so close to being married now its not even funny! I am so excited. I also got the beautiful ring my love sent me to replace the claddagh I lost, I am counting it as my engagement ring. So yeah, its been a very good day. I also got lots of packing done! Whoooo!

Baby! We are so close now, I love you so very much and I hope that we are able to webcam soon so you see this huge smile! Have a great day and take care. Good luck on your test!

Day 174

It has been a long interesting day, a lot has been on my mind. I tried talking to baby about it but I think i just irritated him because he had to go off to work. Dumb me not thinking before i ask perplexing questions that there is no answer to. Anyways, i just hope he is not mad and that he forgets all irritation after he gets off work tonight. Until then i will be writing stuff down in my paper journal that I cannot write on the world wide web.

Baby, I'm so sorry if I upset you or irritated you. I miss you a whole lot and hope to hear your voice soon. Have a good day at work love.

Day 173

It was a good day, my mom and best friend were planning my wedding shower so that was kinda lame just cuss i cannot be included at all and I hate not being included in planning and such. But then me and my friend hung out and had fun. Not much else to say.

Love you baby, miss you so so much. I wish i could have you next to me right now. 

Day 172

It was a good day today, talked to my baby :) hung out with a good friend and her adorable daughter. Yup yup, very good day. Baby and me argued about actors, he can't understand why I dislike actors such as nicholas cage and matthew mcconough (probably botched that) but there are just certain actors I don't care to watch. He loves everybody so eh. whatever. He did make an avatar of me on his xbox which i thought was sweet cuss he misses me just as much as i miss him.

Yes baby, I love you and I miss you and its ok to admit that you miss me lots too. Soon babe, very very soon. We are so close now, just a little longer and then I will be in your arms again. Have a great weekend love. XOXOXOXOXO

Day 171

I was sick most of today but I was really happy that my love called and i was able to talk to him. Not much else to say though really im super tired and gonna hit the hay.

I miss you baby and love you so much and I can't wait to hold you again so the world feels right. Have a great day!

Day 170

Had an amazing day today. Talked to my love on the phone, hung out with a new friend. Got a sweet baby-doll lingerie set. I'm very pleased.

Baby it was so good hearing your voice today. I miss you so much and I love you tons! Please call again soon, you have no idea what it does for me. Take care, I love you lots.

Day 169

Today was much more productive, I got two boxes of clothing packed up. Visited with a friend and had some awesome girl time. She did my makeup and it looks awesome! And alot of talking was done which was good, I definitely needed it. We need to hang out more I love her so much! Um, yeah thats all, so really not alot but it was much more productive. Now I have a pile of clothing on my bed that i have no idea what to do with, maybe i will stuff it in the clothes basket for tonight, that sounds good right?

Baby! I loves you so so much you are so so amazing and I totally miss you and really really want to hear your voice. This no computer so no webcam thing is killing me! But I have some messages recorded so I can hear you before I sleep. I miss you baby, have a great day today.

Day 168

been another long boring day, nothing to talk about.

Love you baby!

Day 167

Watching Downton abby with my momma, texting baby on messenger before he goes to work sometime today, and wasting time on facebook. Normal evening. Especially on sundays. Not a whole lot to talk about today, i've been in a bitchy mood all day and very snappy. Oh well, its life right?

Baby, i am so tired of talking over the internet. Don't get me wrong its much better than nothing and i am very grateful I talk to you at all, I just really miss you and want to spend some time with you. I love you baby very much.

Day 166

Just really irritated tonight so this is going to be uber mega short. Registered a little bit at target today, that was pretty fun actually. And then watched movies while trying not to pass out on the couch. While eating some strawberry shortcake icecream that tasted like perpermint because my taste buds are just that off. Thats right folks, I am still sick and im sick and tired of it!

Baby, I do need to talk to you when you can, not that you ever read my blog so you wont get this message, but i am mentally sending you a very strong i need you to call me message right now, only please do it tomorrow because everyone is going to bed right now. Anyways, everything is fine, i love you, i just really need to hear your voice. Have a good weekend baby.

day 165

Been watching Vampire Diaries all day and it is sooo good but i totally want it to be over so i can get some sleep. Damn cliffhangers! Im feeling much better though. Which is good.

Baby, I miss you tons! I love you I love you, Sleep well. XOXOXO

Day 164

Still battling the sickness, had a fever off and on. I hate the cold. But I am watching the Big Bang Theory and looking forward to the new episode. Bazinga! I love this show. I don't really have alot to talk about tonight so this will stay short.

I love you baby, stay safe and have a good time. Go do something fun. I miss you very much.

Day 163

Fighting fevers and dizzy spells so this is going to be super short. I got a call from my love today and it makes me super happy and totally made me feel a little better.

Baby I love you so much, thank you for the call it really made my day. I miss you tons! Take care and sleep well heart you are my everything.

Day 162

Still getting over being sick, had another slight temp today but I have stayed relatively normal. Been passing the time with Vampire Diaries which is a pretty good show when you watch it from the beginning. I tried watching it before and found it stupid but its much better if you watch the episodes in sequence. On the plus side, baby sent out the paperwork today! Yay! Hopefully it wont take longer than a week to get here.

Baby! I love you! Thank you soooo much for sending out the paperwork. One step closer to being legally married and together again. I miss you so much! Take care.

Day 161

Im sick today, fever of 101.2 this is the first time I have had a fever in forever. So I'm curled up on the couch with Charlie bear feeling like crap. Had major dizzy spells this morning and have been in pain all day. Can't really concentrate so this will stay short.

Baby I really wish you were here so I could curl up and have you take care of me. I love you so much baby, take good care of yourself. I miss you so much my heart.

Day 160

He called he called he called! I thought about him and nothing else all day and he called. It made my entire week to talk to him for that little amount of time, laugh at his silliness, and just overall feel like we were in the same room. You have no idea what just a voice can do when you are separated by distance. Its like a drink of water when you've been dehydrated for three days on the verge of death. I still have butterflies fluttering around in my stomach I'm so thrilled I got to hear from him.

Baby, I know I'm a silly blonde, but its really the simple things that make me happy and just that call from you tonight had me so ecstatic. I knew it was you before I picked up the phone because I had your ringtone set to our song.  My heart leaped a mile away as I jumped up from the dinner table and gleefully answered. I miss you so much baby, and I cannot wait until I am in your arms again. The distance is rough but I know we can make it through anything. I love you with all my heart.

Day 159

Not a whole lot to write about today, I really miss my love and its hard not hearing his voice. I called him today just to hear him and it was only a two minute phone conversation but I was reduced to tears afterwards. There is just something so calming and soothing about his voice that I panic when I think "when will I hear him next?" The paperwork has been delayed briefly but he will be sending it soon. Then we will soon be married. I just can't wait until I am in his arms again because honestly all I want right now is his warmth and comfort.

Baby, you are literally my everything. Being without you is like walking everyday through fire, and since as you know I am a creature of Ice that is quite painful. I know we will be together soon and this will all be worth it, just the journey we had to make to be together, but I want to be with you now. Dear heart, my love, take care of yourself as I continually think of you every moment of everyday. I will talk to you soon.

Day 158

Had a great day hanging out with one of my best friends. Suprisingly nothing big happened for it being friday the thirteenth. Talked to baby on the phone briefly and it made my day.

Baby you goof ball. I love you. Have a good weekend and i will talk to u soon. Hugs and kisses.

Day 157

Today was a much better day than I thought it was going to be. I had lunch with an old classmate from highschool and we got along really, really well. I was suprised. Makes me wonder why we never talked before. Then I got to watch movies on the couch with my mom and that was uber fun. Netflix was being a pain and loading very slowly though. We watched my loves favorite movie The Boondock Saints. Made me really miss him, remembering the time I curled up with him to watch it. I can't wait until I see him again im going to hold on and not let go.

Baby, I know its something small but stuff like watching a movie you love or drinking your favorite drink makes me feel closer to you, so I hold tight to Charlie Bear and kiss your dog tags and pray you can feel me as close as i can feel you. You are my everything, and I never will let you go. Please say you will never leg go of me either. I love you.

Day 156

Didn't hear from my love today unfortunately which probably means his computer went kaput again. The plans I had made for today were postponed because the girl I was suppose to hang out with was up most the night with her sick son and wasn't feeling well herself. So I spent the day watching Taiwanese Dramas and bawling my eyes out because they have some pretty emotional story lines. Well, baby is at work and just posted on facebook so that brings a smile to my face.

I love you baby, so very much and I can't wait to be with you again. Stay safe love.

Day 155

OMG I am so happy today was such a good day! I got to talk to my love for several hours over Skype, still no webcam but that is much better than nothing and I got to talk to him again this evening and he was being so funny. I just wanted to reach through the vast space between us and give him a huge kiss. I am completely hooked on a new Taiwanese drama, and I have plans to hang out with several people this week which is awesome because I will be getting out of the house. Its shaping up to be a pretty good week.

I love love love you baby and can't wait for all that is before us to fall into place. you are my world and my everything. I hope you fix your computer for good soon, I can't wait to see that handsome face of yours again.

Day 154

So yeah, I dont really have all that much to say about today, I visited my future in-laws and that was nice. I always like visiting them. Justin got the paperwork notarized and will send it to me soon, I can't wait! other than that it has been a very unproductive day. Mommy and me finished Ouran Highschool host club and I started on the live action. I think babies computer is on the fritz for good so no more webcam for a while.

Baby, I miss you uber duber much, especially when  I don't get to wish you a good morning at work. I hope you have a wonderful day and I love you so so much. Talk to you soon love.

Day 153

Well, no more video chats with my baby for a little while which is a complete and total bummer, but considering how lucky I have been so far I am not going to complain and jinx it. His computer is acting up for the umpteenth million time this year. Today was good, woke up and messaged my love and me and mommy watched more ouran high school host club because there were more episodes than I originally thought. Now we have two more to go before we are finished, so we will finish those tomorrow night. I did see my baby for two minutes today, I called him up and he was like "thats it im turning off my computer" and i was like "Im sorry" and he said "no no, not because of you, my video driver is going haywire" its actually quite funny. Got my room paprtly picked up and packed up a couple of boxes. i was hoping to get rid of most of my junk but im such a packrat I realized that is never going to happen. I have to go through every item individually and decide to keep it or throw it. Because all my junk has so many memories and some pieces even though worthless to some are utterly priceless to me.

Well dear heart, m'lord and love, I hope that your day is excellently amazing and that you get alot accomplished. I love you very very much and can't wait to talk to you again soon. One day there will be no more computers and it will just be you and me. mmmm

Day 152

Well it has been a very good day today. Not only did I have one of my best friends stay the night last night we had birthday breakfast with family and me and mommy spent bonding time watching movies. I got her to watch Ouran Host Highschool Club, an anime me and my sister really like and we are almost done watching it. Then I got a call from my baby to make my night complete.

Baby, I miss you so much. And I want you so bad. The distance will be gone soon and you will be all mine once again. I love you baby, with everything I am. Sleep well.

Day 151

Had a good day today, Taz came over and we celebrated her belated birthday with some fun juice. I mad a spiritual connection with a new person, she is really cool and it will be interesting talking to her about certain topics. Hm, not all that much to write about I guess.

Love you baby, glad you had a good guys night and I hope you have a very good day. Enjoy your weekend loves.

Day 150

Had a nightmare last nigh, posted on facebook about it. The post said "Last night I had a nightmare where a black raven taunted and toyed with me. There was a forbidden place I could not go that swallowed up all who entered and no matter how hard I tried I could not scream as the black and silver fog engulfed me where I laid. The harder I fought the deeper I sank and when I tried to kill the raven my hand passed right through it like smoke and it rematerialized. Silent Screams. My throat hurt when I awoke, maybe it was more than just a nightmare." That pretty much describes how my night went. I did however wake up to my baby letting me know he was off work and from there I proceeded to webcam with him. Best way to start the day is talking to my love. Then I finished up my anime and watched some television. I think I'm just about over this head cold, thankfully. I took a nap before my mom got home and then we ate some dinner and watched Public Enemies together starring Johnny Depp. It was a really good movie but so odd seeing him without any weird makeup on. Now I'm just doing my nightly blog and picture and watching fresh prince of Bel Air.

Baby I loves you super duper much! You are seriously my world. I am so happy I get to spend my life with you, hopefully making you as happy as you make me. I love waking up and seeing your gorgeous sexy face, love it when you sing when your getting ready in the morning and love talking to you when its nigh-time and I'm settling down for bed and you are starting your day. I can't wait until we are doing it all together everyday. Sweet dreams my love, and have an amazing day at work.

Day 149

I will admit I almost forgot to do this tonight. Today was good, talked with my baby lots and slept lots with a congested head. We had a very good smiled filled conversation before he went to work which made me uber happy and his pocket full of sunshine torture was much fun.

Baby, love you so much, but please never play that song again. Have a good day at work loves.

Day 148

It has been a long day, and I spent most of it sleeping because I didn't feel good and now of course I'm not tired, go figure. I am going to try and play one of my new games which should be fun, I guess. Baby gave me the go ahead to pay for the proxy so now we are half way there, just need to send in the paperwork and its official. I feel like crap, I've been on my period for like three months now and I have to tell you it gets really old. If there are any guys who read this blog, sorry but really it is written be a female, you should have expected something like that sooner or later. Im waiting for the doctor to call me back about my test results to find out wether im hypoglycemic or not, im probably not considering the results are in and I havn't gotten a call yet. Meh oh well, it is what it is right?

Baby, I love you so much. I say that everyday but just because I say it everyday it doesn't mean that it isn't one hundred percent true. You give me butterflies when you randomly out of the blue tell me that you love me. I think the fact I still get butterflies is proof enough. You are my everything I want in life and Im so happy to call you mine and me yours. I hope you have a great day at work baby.

Day 147

I no feel good.

Baby, i just want to hold you and kiss you and love you and cuddle with you. C'mere right now. I miss you so much.

Day 146

Had a great new years celebrating with friends and family, had a shot of liquor which im pretty sure screwed up my throat but I still had a ton of fun. New years is definitely loud. Best part of the new years was talking to my baby when he was absolutely snockered. He is soooo hilarious. Spent this evening chilling with my mamma and watching movies.

Baby, its a new year. Last year had alot of ups and downs but I look foreward to the challenges of the new year and facing them with you. Love you with my whole heart and soul. Forever and always.