Day 68

Today was a goid day. Woke up and talked to my baby. Got some banking stuff figured out. Went to a bookstore and ate at a greasy spoon burger joint called XXX but it was very family friendly. The rootbeer there was so delicious and the burgers were ok. Got home and watched an episode of naruto with baby before he went to bed and then watched fast five, which was absolutly amazing! After that i did some drafting homework until just a couple minutes ago and now imma go to sleep.

Baby i hope you sleep well and have an amazing day. You are the light of my life and I will never ever stop loving. Thank you baby so much for all the smiles. I can't wait to see your smiling face in the morning. I love you with all my heart. Sleep well my love.

Day 67

Been a long day, worked on my drafting final and it was mostly done now, i got some more to do tomorrow but thats totally normal. Watched a couple of shows on netflix and my baby spoiled me with an episode of pokemon. Yup, good day. Nothing else to really write because i didn't do anything else. So yeah, thats all for now. Write more tomorrow.

Day 66

Much better day today. Didn't get any of the homework done i wanted to so im bummed about that but oh well that just means more to do tomorrow.  Im tired and going to head to bed after i get some orange juice. I loves my baby with all my heart! Talk to you again tomorrow baby sleep well and have a great day! Kisses!!!!

Day 65

I can't do this right now, i feel too week and worn out. Of course I will do it, and I will make it through and i will have my breakdown and then build myself back up, its just so hard right now. Ive been crying non-stop for the past half hour. I am so tired of this distance, i want it to go away right now and I want to have my love in my arms where i can feel him and just hold him! God Damnit, I hate nights like these, nights where i just feel worthless and like there is nothing i can do right in the whole entire world and i am just a pain in everyones neck and i should just dissapear. I dont want to be here right now! I want to be with him, where i dont feel so alone all the time, where i can laugh with him and watch him fall asleep, rub his back and sing a soft tune until he was in dreamy bye land. I want to wake up and have him kiss me good morning, and I dont want to be alone! But i have to be patient and I have to wait just a little bit longer and then all the waiting will have been completely worth it. Right now i just need to have a day where I feel like crap because there is nothing i can do and I am in control of nothing. I hate school, I can't find a job, and im so broke i can't even buy my love a birthday present to make up for the fact that I wont be there! I wont be there when he turns 23, and i wont be there for our two year anniversary and I wont be there for christmas or new years. I will be here and all i can do is smile when we webcam even though it kills me to see him and not be able to touch him. I have to suck it up and deal because this is what we have to deal with right now. I love you baby with all of my heart and I can't wait until I can hold you in my arms once again. I know there will always be nights like these when we are apart, and i promise i can do this. I can stay strong. Just let me break once in a while and build myself back up. We can do this together. I love you so very much. Have an amazing day and I really hope to talk to you in the morning when im not so emotional.

Day 64

Nothing new except more cold sores. Tired and in bed for the night with nothing to say. Will write tomorrow. Love you baby. Have a great day at work. I.will talk to you tomorrow.

Day 63

Stayed home from school. Homework half completed will finish the rest tomorrow. Had a seven hour long convo with my baby, yeah it was a good day minus the coldsores and sick part. Im tired though so im going to bed. I love you baby, have an amazing day and get yourself some good rest. Take care and i will talk to you in the morning.

Day 62

Been a long day, im definatly coming down with something. Going to stay home from school tomorrow because I wanna kick it in the but before it even has a chance to start, especially with finals coming up so soon. I do have to say I had a wondfully long conversation with the love of my life today. It was epically awsome and we watched some bleach and naruto together. Made me uber happy. I think he was called in for work or something though because he hasn't messaged me in a while. But oh well, thats what happens when your a busy working man. I love him so very much and I am so happy to have him in my life as well as his love. Its just been an uber good day, and I got my car back on top of it! now if i only wasn't sick. I loves you baby and I hope you have a really great day today. Take care of yourself, I love you! and I will talk to you when you get a chance.

Day 61

Not much to report today, woke up with a cold sore and im pissed about that. Got some homework done and talked to my baby. A very productive and happy day overall. Thats all im gonna really say, I have a pain in my neck that is going to turn into a migrain if i dont lay down soon, so baby! I love you! Im so proud of you! And I really hope im able to talk to you tomorrow love. Have an amazing day at work and I shall see you when i see you. Loves you to the moon and back!

Day 60

Its been 60 days, and I have lost count of the weeks, months, other vairous ways to count time, but I know that it has been 60 days and babe we are as strong as ever. I love that I get to see your amazingly handsom, sweet face everyday and sometimes Im lucky enough to wake up to you and fall asleep to you. I know you are very busy and have alot going on but I really appreciate the fact that you take the time out to give me some special time. It makes me feel like a trillion bucks. And your goal for tomorrow is to get me to episode 200 of Bleach, so I should probably really get some shut eye so that I dont fall asleep while I watch it. lol.  I love you baby, and I hope you have a non-stressful day and get everything done you need to and that you get to chill out and have some much deserved you time. You are a truly amazing man and I am so thankful to have your love and you in my life. So, baby, have a great day, maybe get a nap in there, and I will see you in the morning love. Time to hold you in my dreams!

Day 59

This is my 101st post on this blog. Wow how time flys and over half of those were just my everyday count up posts. Its been 59 days since I last saw my love but really we are closer than ever. Thank god for technology! I get to see his handsom face everysingle day and it makes me truly happy to not only see his face but to also hear his voice!

I have not posted pics because half of them have been of friends and such that I do not have permission to post on here. I don't know if im going to keep up with the photos on the blog because I have them all on facebook in a seperate album. Anyways, so yeah, no more pics for a while.

I love you baby! You are the most amazing, unique, wonderful man in the entire world and everyday you make me proud to call you mine. I am so incredibly proud of all the progress you are making in your everday life, even the small things like going to the gym or getting your homework done before video games. You are mine, always and forever. My heart and joy, my one and only. My soul is yours love, so sleep in peace knowing I am here and will never leave.

Day 58

Baby! I love you soooooo much! And I cannot believe that you are finally hooked on Naruto. Payback for getting me hooked on bleach. This is what I posted on my facebook today:

 

I am so happy with the way my life is right now. Yes, i hate school, and yes my ♥ is far too far away. But Im going for a bachelors in a program that really excites me, and baby and I wont be seperated forever. The point is im working towards a better future not only for me but for our future together. We make plans together and we are both working towards a brighter and better tomorrow. Baby, its... hard right now being so far away, but we have made it through much worse. We have each other and we have love, compassion, and respect for one another. All of these are important and all show just how much we are determined to make this work. Justin, I ♥ you with all my heart and that will never change.

This is truly how I am feeling right now. And  baby I am so, so proud of you for everything you have acomplished and that you are working towards. You truly make me the happiest woman on the planet earth and I cannot help but being all cheasy and saying mushy gushy stuff. I love you and I am so happy we are growing together and everyday falling more in love and bonding as a couple. The next few years are going to be really tough, with alot of changes and difficulties heading our way but I truly belive that we will make it through and that every trial will bring us closer and closer together. You are my one, my only, my forever.

Day 57

Currently webcamming with my baby who is very sleepy. He is so adorable! My back is killing me so im heating it, i was bent over for my drafting assignment measuring and drawing the damn little tiny lines. But i was very productive today which was a good thing.

I loves you baby with all of my heart and you are so adorable and amazing and I really cannot image you not being in my life. Thank you for all the laughs and all the love. Every day is special and I will hold every moment we are together in my heart. Love you! Have a great day!

Day 56

Not much to say today, Had an awsome chat with my baby love and caught up with my bestest firend via webcam. Today was a good day all things considered, even school wasn't horribly bad. The teacher who I dont like his teaching I asked how my grade was and he said an A ish so im happy enough. Found a way to put sticky notes on my desktop so I have alot of sticky notes reminding me to do things now.

I loves you baby with all my heart and what you told me today really lifted me up inside and made me feel like a trillion bucks! You have no idea how even the simplest little statement can lift me up and make me float on clouds. You are all I will ever want, and all I need. You have me heart and soul forever and a day. All of eternity. I am never going to stop loving you, and I will always be here for you no matter what. When the road gets rough and rocky we just have to cling a little tighter to make it through again to the good times. Sleep tight and have an amazing day my knight in shining armor. I will meet you in my dreams and talk to you whenever possible. <3

Day 55

Its been several days since I did photos again. Sorry, Ive been keeping up on facebook. Not much going on. I got to see my uncle from Hawaii yesterday and meet his girlfriend and I spent the day with my mommy. Other than that I have just been watching bleach with justin everyday. We have had two serious converstations and one really good long one today after bleach. I also got a couple of bridal planning books and stuff so im a verry happy girl. Got my powerpoint done today, still need to do the vocabulary somehow, but dont want to. I have so many to catch up on, and I have quite a bit of drafting to catch up on also. I really hate schoolwork. And I talked to someone at the school and they really weren't all that helpfull. I also have to figure out how to do the stupid online math course. UGH! You would think for a private school they would have their stuff put together much better. But no!

Anyways, pics are below.

My pics, now im gonna watch bleach with my baby this morning. I <3 you babe! you rock and im so glad you woke up in a great mood. Love you have a great day!

Day 54

New army wives. Visited with mommy and uncle today as well as bleach marathon and figuring out plans. Yup today was a good day. Really tired now.

Love you babe and so happy we figured things out again. Lol. You make me so happy. Have an amazing day love.