Day 83

Another full day of schoolwork and im still not done. Glarb! My body is killing me and i wanna set everything i did on fire. Anyways im gonna do a little more than watch some anime. Babe u are amazing! Stay golden i love you. Thank you for making my schoolwork less tedious. Have a great day at work!

Day 82

Been doing homework all day and of course i have another headache. Homework is nowhere near done of course and tomorrow is sunday and the start of my last week. Fml! Anyways today was babies birthday and he turned 23 yay!!! Wish i could have been there to celebrate with you. I loves you babe, thank you for being my study buddy. Get some good rest now and we will study more when you wake up.

Day 81

Really bad headache. Babies birthday in germany so happy birthday baby. I love you to death! You are the very best and i hope to be in person for your next one. You have a gift in the mail i hope you like it. Love you baby!

Day 80... a little late

OMG! For the first time I forgot to post a day 80. I was so caught up in my homework and webcamming with my baby that it didn't even cross my mind to write this. So Im writing day 80 on the same day that I will be writing 81. I feel really bad about forgetting. I got the pictures and everything up so how on earth could I forget about this post!

Well, time has been passing ever so slowly, My finals are all due next week and then im done with school and its off to find a job and save up lots of mulah. I hope I will be able to because the way its looking right now money is going to be really tight. Plus I don't want Justin saving up everything by himself. I spent literally all day yesterday working on homework and today is just going to be a repeat of that. I am so over homework and I really need a change so maybe its a good thing I will be taking a little break from school. Now the only dilema is where am i going to find a job? Where I live there really isn't all that many people hiring and so many people are looking for jobs that people like me, with no experience, have a really hard time finding one. Plus for some reason I always fail on the personality tests. Everyone says to lie but honesty counts in my opinion so every question I am going to answer honestly. Oh well though, I will get a job eventually. Im hoping that I will actually get two or three jobs because thats how much I really need the money. School sucks of course so im super happy its almost done. Well I better get up and start my day, i really hope my babes gets online soon so I can chat him up for a little bit.

Hey baby! So sorry i forgot about day 80, and tomorrow is your birthday! I hope you go out and have lots of fun with your guy friends, sorry I can't be there in person but you know I am always with you in spirit. You are the love of my life and my best friend and I look foreward to everyday that we share together even when we are miles and miles apart. I love you baby.

Day 79

Watching a new anime my babe said was really good. So far i can see why he suggested it. Most of the voices are annoying but im working on moving past that. Its just a really weird anime. Im watching Shuffle. Weird, thats all I have to say. Baby got his computer working again so hopefully we will webcam soon, but he and I both have alot of schoolwork to do so we wont get to webcam nearly as much. My term ends on wednesday of next week and then I need to find a job, or two, or three, or four. Lol, definatly need to make some money. But everything will workout like its suppose to.

I loves my baby! You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You make me so incredibly happy! I look foreward to spending the rest of my life with my knight in shining armor. You rock! And i definatly look foreward to many anime marathons cuddled up by your side. Hope your schooling is going well. Loves loves, nighty nighty I will cuddle you in my dreams!

Day 78

I am super super tired right now. Going to give my baby the first wakeup call in a long while here in a couple of minutes. After I talk to him and get my powerpoint done for class, I am going to bed. And i just had an uber scary thought that something is due tomorrow that I dont have done so im cutting this short.

I love you baby and I will get to hear that sweet voice of yours very shortly. I hope you slept well and I loves you!

Day 77

Today I was so tired it took me a whole extra five minutes to roll out of bed, then I had to pack up my backpack and leave for school. I was stuck in an hour and a half of traffic making me a half hour late for my first class where I sat in a broken wodden stool. Then durring my second class I had to download open office three times because it kept exiting before it finished. Then I missed a call from Justin at lunch but thankfully I was able to figure out how to call him back and I talked to him for a couple of minutes before he went to sleep. Hearing his voice made me cry because I miss him so much and I just wanted to lay next to him and rub his back until he fell asleep. But after the very short (unfortunatly) call I had to go back to class and finish out lunch. I tried to nap but couldn't on the uncomfortable table. Then I finished my schoolwork early so I was able to leave early and beat the really bad traffic.

Baby, I love you so much but it was so good to hear your voice. I woves you with my whole heart and want to give you lots of squeezes and rub your back everynight for you until you fall asleep. You are an amazing man and I am so lucky to have you in my life. Take care of yourself babe and I hope that you figure out everything you need to. I will talk to you again as soon as possible. Loves you! Loves you! Loves you!

Day 76

Baby's computer broke so I probably wont talk to him for a while. Mega uber sadness there, facebook will be our means of communication. But I did pack up his birthday box and im sending it out tomorrow. I hope he likes it. I really miss him, and I wish i could spend his birthday with him. Hopefully the webcam will be up and running by then so I can wish him a Happy Birthday in Person... well, sorta in person. Thank goodness for technology, its a lifesaver right now. Lets me see my baby, and communicate with him when he is halfway around the world.

I love you baby, so much. I hope you get your computer fixed soon, not only so I can talk to you, but so you can do your homework and watch your anime. It will all work out and dont worry about any of it. You are amazing!! and I love you so so much. I wanna cuddle up to you and sleep in your heat. I dreamed of watching anime with you all cuddled up last night, it was a very good, amazing, wonderful dream. I hope to have another one just like it tonight. I will be holding you in my heart every second of every day. Sweet dreams to you baby, and I hope your workday goes amazingly. Talk to you as soon as I can.

Day 75

Got some drafting homework done, talked to my baby, printed out some pics and spent quality time with my momma. Overall it was a very good day that went by very slowly. But that's ok for today, made me feel like i had extra time with mommy. Got lots of cuddles with my kitty and found a new toothpaste i really like. So yeah everything is positive. I go back to my aunts tomorrow and then start my daily routine anew.

I love you Justin, you are the light in my life and i never will let you go withought a fight. My sexy god of fire. Sleep tight love, i hold you in my arms and heart as i sleep and as each day passes. You are always with me and one day we will be together in person again. Until know you are always on my mind and in my heart. Take care of yourself dear heart, and i will see you when i awake.

Day 74

Best day i've had in a while. I love being home and seeing my mom again. I missed her so much. Will be sad to have to go back to school on monday and not see her again for a long time.

Loved talking to my baby today. So glad we have your rings mostly figured out. And don't worry we will get gamestop taken care of. I loves you baby with all my heart. Im gonna meet you in my dreams and hold you tight until tomorrow when i get to hear that sweet voice once again.

Day 73

Today was my two year anniversary with the love of my life. I am so glad we have made it so long and we have truely come so far. We have gone through so much and overcame even more. i know we can make it through anything. I love you baby with all of my heart and soul and today was just another milestone we hit. You are everything to me and just so wonderful. I love you with all my heart. Sleep well and take care of yourself baby and tomorrow we start year three!

Day 72

So yeah, today was really long and im really tired and just want to go to sleep. Actually what I really want to do is curly up next to my baby have fall asleep on him while having an anime fest. Just feeling him, his skin against mine, and having him with me would be so amazing right now you have no idea. Baby I love you with all my heart and Im so glad I have you in my life. Take care of you and be safe my love, I will hold you in my dreamz tonight, and I hope you feel my love as you work.

Day 71

Spent several hours doing drafting today and my back is killing me. Its not done and the final is due tomorrow so im not really happy about that right now. I really can't concentrate much so tonights post is short.

I love you baby! you are amazing and you need to decide how you like your coffee so i can learn and make it for you perfect every single morning just the way you like it. You are so amazing, and so funny and sweet and just so everything. I cannot wait until we are married and i get to do little things for you like making coffee and folding laundry and just everything! I love you so much, and i hope your day at work goes swimmingly and I will talk to you when you get off.

Day 70

Its been a long day what with school and all and of course not getting to sleep until like midnight last night. And i have a ton of homework I should be doing but instead im just gong to go to sleep because im really tired and I will just cram all day tomorrow. Yeah, that sounds like a plan that wont backfire considering I will probably spend like six hours talking to the love of my life before I even get started on the drafting project and then i need to touch up the powerpoint. See, im a smart cookie because I know that i am doing something that is bad for me and I am doing it willingly because the alternative is just so much better. I will get me work done no matter what, And im sure I will get an ok grade on it too. The main reason i dont want to do drafting is because my back is killing me and I really don't want to bend over anything else right now after a whole day of drafting at school. Yeah, i think i can give myself a break. So im headed to bed.

Baby, you know I love you with my whole heart, and I will always do my best not to hurt you or cause you pain, but i will slip up and make mistakes, I will be insensitve and sometimes even cruel as you too can be, but because we love each other we step over the obstacle, forgive and forget because what we have is more important than the insignificant little things that happen. You are amazing, and have really shown me how much you care for me over the past couple of months and every little thing you do makes me fall even more in love with you even if it initially hurts, it forces me to face my own imperfections, learn form my mistakes and grow. Thank you for being the wonderful constant in my life who is always there for me no matter what and who knows when to do what even when I dont.You are amazing, and I am never letting go of you without a fight.

Day 69

Hate today, it was great until i opened my big fat mouth and threw something completely out of proportion. Thank goodness my baby knows how easily my mind carries away when im emotional and he considers the conversation over and done with. I dont but thats because my mind goes craszy psycotic and likes driving me mad. Oh well.

I love you baby, forgive me my errors I am only human and bound to make mistakes. Tonight was one that should not have happened but I am getting better at catching myself. I love you baby with all of my heart and soul and I am never letting you go. You are stuck with me. P.S. Almost 2 years <3