Day 98

I got the job!!! Im excited to start my first real job and start making money to put in the savings for baby and me. I don't know if he is really happy about it because i wont be able to talk to him as much. Baby i promise i will talk to you as much as possible even if im up late or have to wake up early because talking to you, hearing your loving voice and seeing your smiling face is what will get me through the long full days. I love you baby! Sleep well and as always have an amazing day at work.

Day 97

Took tired long day tomorrow with my interview and had fun with facebook tonight.

Love's you baby don't be so grr at me next time i help with schoolwork. Have a great day love.

Day 96

Royally pissed off right now at dumb people who say dumb shit. Seriously, I know more about my life than you do so shut the fuck up. Ugh, my muscles hurt I have been shaking so bad I am that mad. Seriously some people just dont know when to take the hint that someone doesn't want to talk to them anymore. Are people seriously that stupid? Anyways, im so done for the night. Im going to try to go to bed now, maybe i will have dreams about how the stupid people get whats coming to them.

Babe, I love you and I thank you for always speaking to me with respect, even if you sometimes joke in a disrespectful way I know you love me and care about me. Take care of yourself and have pleasent dreams love I will talk to you in the morning.

Day 95

Baby! My arm hurts so bad. Not really hurts but is so uncomfortable. And you are such a nerd i love it! Im tired so im gonna curl up and dream that i am with you love.

Day 94

<p>Visiting at a friends house with her sweet little babies. Been a really long day, got my new bc installed... installed that's a weird way to think about it. But anyways its uber painful if i move the wrong way. So yeah not too much to say tonight. Got to talk to my baby lots.

I love you babe but sometimes you can be a big meanie. I love you lots though anyways. I cannot wait to talk to you on webcam tomorrow sleep well. Take care!

Day 93

Long boring day, feels like it just dragged on and on. I am so tired right now. But I cannot fall asleep for the life of me. Watching a really funny/sad anime right now that is really good and then I really want to watch full metal alchemist. But I dont want to watch it if i can't curl up next to Justin. Which I really want to do right now, I love him soooo much and i competely miss him right now totally.

Baby! I loves you, I loves you. I miss you, I miss you. I wants to curl up next to you and never leave your side. You are my whole world and I will never let you go. I hope you are sleeping well and taking care of yourself. Talk to you tomorrow loves.

Day 92

So its official that Facebook hates my computer, every other site workes just fine, but facebook is super slow and makes my computer freeze. Im watching a really sad anime, it has super funny moments but its allready made me cry once. Not much to report today, applied for three different jobs so we will see what happens, my fingers are crossed.

Baby! I loves you! I hope you had a good workout at Pt and have an amazing day at work because you are my amazing man who I love with all my heart and we can make it through anything. Kisses and Hugs baby, I will hold you tonight in my dreams and hope you feel my love while you work.

Day 91

Omg im so frustrated right now. Just applied for a job and it took forever and my computer was being difficult and didn't want to type anything! Blah! Im too worked up right now so this is all fr tonight.

Thank you my manly man for having a steady job to support your habits, a good work ethic, and amazing motivation. You are my inspiration as i blunder through application after application because the job i get will not only support me but will help us financially. I love you my manly man.

Day 90

It has been 90 long days since I was last in the presence of the man I love. It has only been an hour since I last saw his smiling face, but I miss him as much today as I do the day he left. I miss him with my whole heart and soul, so much that I don't think I could miss him more if I tired... but I know thats a lie, I could miss him a whole lot more, but I get to see him over skype and talk to him everyday so the missing isn't as great as if he was deployed because I get to see him and talk to him I fool myself into a sort of fantasy where he is here and then I dont have to miss him at all. My words are confusing even me at this point, so I do not blame you if you are lost. I love my man with my whole heart and soul and I thank the gods for the technology of today that enable me to see and speak to him. Being in love with an army man is not easy, but I love him, and he has a job to do so I am here to support him. He got all caught up in his schooling today, I am so proud of him. He is really taking the initiative and getting what he needs to done when he needs to. He had enough time after finishing his homework that we got to watch a couple of episodes of bleach together over skype before he went to pt. I know its silly but its the little moments like that that make me the happiest. I did have a mini panic attack when my speakers went haywire, but it all got fixed. I think I would have broken down if my skype broke. Not really hearing from him the three days when his computer broke was horrible and I dont want to do that again. The job hunt is not going so great, I have applied at a couple of different places but I havn't heard back from anyone yet. Its very discouraging. I wish I could just walk into a place, say I wanna work here, and then have an interview on the spot so the managers saw me for a person and not just a piece of paper which does in no way show my qualifications for a job. I am getting very mad, especially since almost everything is online these days, there is even less person to person contact. Anyways, thats my little frustrations for the day, minus the breakdown of sexual frustration in the shower this afternoon. lol.

Hey baby, I really wish you would read this blog sometimes but I know you would just be rolling your eyes and calling me hopeless, just another thing I love about you. I love seeing you wrapped up in my fleece blanket, I send all my positive thoughts your way and hope you can feel my warmth surrounding you. And im really happy that you had an amazing nights sleep last night, I happy! lol, I love you baby and I hope your day at work goes swimmingly. Take care of yourself love.

Day 89

Today was an interesting day to say the least. I slept in for a little bit, if you call lying in bed until 8 sleeping in... its better than the usual 7-7:30 I get up though and then I dont really sleep until then I wake up at 6-6:30 and roll over until the 7's time. But today I made it until 8, then I got up and messaged baby but he was out so I did some facebook browsing. Then a couple hours later he was online and I helped him do his Biology homework, it was so much fun! And um, then he had homework to do so I tried looking for a job, I found a perfect one but it was too far away from where I live so I was majorly dissapointed about that. And then me and baby were talking and we got into a mini tiff because my Virgo brain went into overdrive like it always does and I don't know how to turn it off. lol, but we are all good now, he is working on a test right now. So I have my mic on mute so my typing doesn't bother him (I love skype!). And of course he is blasting music which I totally dont get. But whatever, I have to have complete silence in order to study. This just goes to show when we live together we will be studying in seperate rooms unless were helping each other out or nothing will ever get accomplished. lol. Um, lets see what else, I all of a sudden got uber tired... Like yawns are coming on and my eyes got heavy. I talked to mommy lots to today, and its day 89 which means tomorrow is 90 then only 10 more days until we are in the tripple digits... thats scary but at least time has been passing semi quickly.

I have had alot of people viewing my blog lately, thank you all of you. I am guessing half of the views are for the Stone sour song lyrics I posted a while back and thats cool, but if you are reading it for more than just that one go ahead and follow and leave a comment if you like. =)

Baby! Im super sorry about earlier with the little tiff and all, you are right again (as much as I hate to admit it) I am too paranoid for my own good. But at least we can laugh about it right? Im working on making my head do what I want it to and not what it wants to do, but I havn't found the perfect way to yet. Im thinking im going to have to get out the diary again and burn it when its full. Anywho, im so happy your getting your homework done babes, take care of yous you know I love you always and forever. I can't wait to see you in person again and kiss you and hold you and run away from you when you try to do something devilish. lol. Its rare that im on webcam with you as I write this so im just going to end with a good night and sweet dreams my love.

Day 88

Its been a really rough day and all I have to say is I better get some damn birth control in my system fast or im going to go bitch crazy on someone. I hate my rollercoaster emotions. TOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! My head has way to much running though it and im just so drained.

I love you baby, glad you had fun hanging out with the guys. I hope your schoolwork goes well and you get everything taken care of. I will chat at ya tomorrow love.

Day 87

So I felt so ucky yesterday but today I am feeling much much better. I have no idea what I caught but im so happy it only lasted a little over a day. My stomach is still a little sore but I think thats from throwing up and Im finally getting tired again after sleeping for probably 18 hours yesterday. I got my facebook albums all caught up and watched this hilarious anime Justin told me about, I wish I would have listened to him sooner, despite the obnoxiously large breatsted and often bare anime chicks, it was just super funny. And I got all my finals done today, Im so glad my teachers were so understanding and let me turn everything in a day late. So tomorrow I start the official process of finding a job. I have a game plan allready, I am going to apply to at least five places online per day and im going to print out ten resumes that I want passed out after a weeks time. I think that should help alot with the whole finding a job process, and now that everything is apply online anyways, im really hoping i can find one or two places that will hire me. Since I don't have any more schooling I can put my full effort into it and do 100 percent on the job. Oh, and baby got his sheets today and said he really liked them so that makes me uber happy! I was so worried he wasn't going to like them because they are a weird type of fabric. But I did good =)

Baby! You are so adorable, wrapped up in a blanket and making funny faces at me. I know the day started off icky, but everything turned out really good in the end. Im so tired now I wish you were here so I could pass out next to your warmth and in your loving arms. Im so glad we get to talk as much as we do, and I only wish I could do more for you. Dont worry, i will find a good job and save us up alot of money for the wedding and such. Baby, you are my whole world, now and forever you are mine and I am yours.

Day 86

Im sick so im keeping this short. Missed my finals today and feel like crap. Thank you baby for talking to me as long as you did, it really helped make me feel a little better. I loves you baby, have a good day at work and i will talk to u tomorrow l.

Day 85

So its been a long day, I found out three of the people I care very much about are having tests done on them, one is having her heart tested and that scares the shit out of me. I hope that she is ok. Tomorrow is my last day of school and then I have to find a job and I just have to say im so glad to be done with finals. Anyways, I dont really feel like posting much tonight, Im tired and im just going to head to bed. Bad news takes alot out of you.

Baby, thank you for being my strong shoulder to lay my head against, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you in my life. Just being there to listen is such a comfort to me. Thank you for everything. My love for you grows deeper and stronger everyday and that will never change. I am so in love with you. Take care of yourself love and have a great day.

Day 84 Happy Halloween!

That's right its all hallows eve and i only passed out candy this year. Sadly there was no dressing up. I will make up for that next year though. And i'll make justin dress up with me. Lol. Baby!  Its halloween and i wish u could be here to hold me while i freaked myself out with scary movies. Your good at that. Have a great day at work and goodluck to you on your schoolwork. Love ya babe!