Day 346

Almost there!

Love ya babe!

Day 345

Omg in two days I will be with my husband!

I'm coming babe!!!!!

Day 344

Finally the puzzle pieces are falling into place <3

Soon my love, very soon :*

Day 343

Yay good news at last I will have far more tomorrow and I cannot wait! At least I hope it's good news tomorrow.

I miss you babe! So close, almost there!

Day 342

Hum de dum dum dum!

Miss you love!

Day 341

It has been a long and trying week and so much has been going on. Of course none of it is internet disclosable appropriate so I shall have to keep those entires to a paper journal, which I will probably never write. I babysat someone who is close to a little brother to me today and we had a ton of fun driving all over the place and getting all sorts of treats. It was actually a lot of fun, if not a lot exausting. I am very ready to just curl up with my book and chillax for the evening. Yes this post is longer and has some actual content to it because I am writing it on an actual computer instead of my ipod. But this is about as far as the novelty will last. So goodnight virtual world.

And baby, you know I love you and miss you so much, i post it everyday I am sure if anyone reads this they roll their eyes at me. But I really do and I wish I had you hear with me to help me out during this trying time. I can't wait to hear your voice once again love. XOXO

Day 340

This is getting so old. The only stuff I have going on involves others and I can't write it so here we are with yet another boring post.

Missing you much love.

Day 339

Today was much better I hung out with one of my best friends and an exhausted right now.

Love you baby oh so much. Nothing will ever change my love for you.

Day 338

It's just been one hell of a crappy day.

Baby I could really use a good hug.

Day 337

My temper is running short and everyone is pissing me off.

Baby why is it taking so long? Im going crazy being away from you.

Day 336

Again nothin new to post. This is getting so old.

Love you babe!

Day 334

Reading good books

Miss you babe

Day 335

Watching movies with my momma and feeling very tired.

Missing you so much baby. It was so good talking to you last night.

Day 333

Nothing to write

Except thank you baby for the amazing talk tonight. I love you bunches!

Day 332

Fly me to the moon baby

I love you

Day 331

The fourth of July is my least favorite holiday of all. I am missing my husband something fierce.

Baby I wish you would call. Hope you had a good fourth, maybe I will hear from you tomorrow.

Day 330

Spending quality time with my momma!

Miss you babe

Day 329

Been watching television with my momma today :)

Love u baby I do cannot wait to be with you!

Day 328

Ugh I miss my man! This sucks so bad.

I loved hearing your voice today baby I am missing you so much! Every day we are one step closer to being together again!

Day 327

Had a movie marathon with my momma. Watched 6 movies. Immortals, three musketeers, journey 2 mysterious island, this means war, war horse, and Jane eyre.

Baby I am missing you so much. I wish I could hear your voice and see your face. I love you.

Day 326

Today was my aunts birthday
Getting mixed messages again about what I need to do
Got new books to read
Up to date on sookie stackhouse novels.

Missing you tons babe. Hope to send you some stuff soon.

Day 325

Yeah. Im so outta stuff to write. No good news. I shall read.

Love you baby

Day 324

Long day happy birthday to one of my best friends!

Missing you tons babe

Day 323

Long day but slowly making progress on the right direction and I had a much needed talk time with my love.

Missing you lots babe

Day 322

-_-

Babe I love you

Day 321

Long long day. Looking forward to tomorrow.

Miss you babe. Hope to hear from you soon.

Day 320

Ssdd

Missing you love

Day 319

Long but good day. Getting closer!

Cannot wait to see you love!

Day 318

Going insane!

Haveagreatdaybaby!

Day 317

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not saying anything cuss I don't want to jinx it.

Ily baby !

Day 316

-_-

Hoping for some good news babe XO

Day 315

Today has been a very long and exhausting day. So much to deal with and the stress is really starting to get to me. Probably because we are so very close.

I love you so much baby! Hope for some good news in the morning. Lots of love.

Day 314

Oh goodness. This is getting really rough. I hope to god its over soon. Oh and FYI true blood does not follow the book series. At all.

I love you baby. I miss you. I hope you accomplish everything and get to sleep soon. XOXOXO

Day 313

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggg! So tired of waiting!

Baby I hope you have some good news in the morning! Love you!

Day 312

Finished book three of the series. Onto book four! It's so interesting. Love love the books!

Have a great day baby. Love you!

Day 311

Been in a reading frenzy! No more news yet.

Love ya babe. Keep me updated!

Day 310

Family is visiting I haven't seen in forever! Baby is looking for a place.

I hope to be with you soon baby. Love you!

Day 309

Blah blah blah blah blah. Good day. Taz is staying over visiting. Fun fun!

Miss ya babe.

Day 308

No news yet. Hopefully there will be some in the morning.

Missing u tons babe

Day 307

Have I mentioned how very tired I am of this? I dont want to keep track of the days anymore. I just want my husband already.

Baby I miss you so much. I hope there is good news when I wake up.

Day 306

Sisters grad party was today.

I miss you my heart

Day 305

My lil Sis and brother in law graduated today. Whooo!

Wish u could have been there baby. Miss you.

Day 304

Officially addicted to true blood.

Thank you baby for season 3 your the best! Can't wait to watch them with you.

Day 303

Lost Internet last night.

Miss u baby

Day 302 * Post 2

I just realized i didn't post yesterday. Wow, i made it so long without missing a day. *sigh* that's what I get for getting all caught up in the photo aspect on Facebook. So this is my makeup post. I fail miserably!!!!!!!

Don't be too disappointed babe, I did the photos and those are whats important. You don't read this anyways. Love you all the same!

Day 302

God so tired. Long week ahead of me. Why is true blood so addictive?

Miss and love you babe xoxo

Day 300

Can I just curl up in a little ball and cry? This is way too long to be without my husband I miss him something fierce.

Baby, when will this end? I miss you so much my love. Hoping to hear good news from you when I wake up. Have a great day baby.

Day 299

Baby had it rough today, and I am so hungry all the time? Wtf right how does that make sense? Mega munchies are a no no.

Love you baby, hope you get a good full night of sleep. XOXO

Day 298

Watching the boys tonight. Got a mani pedi this morning. Been a pretty good day all in all.

Babe. I miss you soooooo much. I hope this weekend goes by quickly. Have a great day!

Day 297

Did I mention this was getting old? Paperwork should be done soon.

Love u baby!

Day 296

Day 296, two hundred and nighty six days, two nine six. There is something seriously wrong with this picture.

Love you babe, get that paperwork taken care of yesterday!

Day 295

waiting and slowly loosing my mind as all this stupid paperwork processes, what i wouldn't give to be curled up in my husbands arms right now.

Love you baby, sleep well.

Day 294

Today was just what I needed some time with my husband! Granted over web cam but hey I will take what I can get.

Missing you every second babe. Love you.

Day 293

Missed a call :(

I miss you husband. Call back please!

Day 292

I am so tired of writing these blog posts day after day after day. I want to be with my husband now god damnit! I am so sick and tired of this distance. SKjflskdjkaljfkajfklajriofdjklgrakljgrkldzmklajiktj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baby, I love you, and I know we have to wait for the paperwork. But im going insane here!

Day 291

Dyed my hair today, whoooo.

Goodnight love <3

Day 290

Back to a semi short post tonight. I am attempting to create another roleplay on a much loved site. Hopefully this one really takes off. I got the emerald and butterfly dragon in dragonvale tonight within an hour of each other. Yeah, Im pretty estatic right now.

Baby I miss you so much! 290 days is way tooo fricking long to go without being in your arms. i love you, hope you enjoy your weekend and I will talk to you soon!

Day 289

So I am finally sitting down at my computer and writing out a long and much needed post for once. Most nights I just write something from my ipod real quick before I head to bed because I have started and must finish writing one thing every day until I am reunited with my husband. It is very difficult and frankly by this point quite depressing to do. I miss him very much and this distance is making me mega emotional. We were married on February 8th and have yet to spend one moment together in person, its really disheartening. So I don't write too much because I don't have much to write. I wake up, hope to catch my husband on webcam which I do most days, talk to him until he goes to bed, watch some random anime on netflix, play on my ipod, stare at the ceiling, have dinner, maybe talk to my husband before he goes to work, stay up until odd hours of the night because I cannot get to sleep, stare at the ceiling, have a fitful nights rest, wake up and repeat the process. I live quite an exciting life. I have debated on getting a job, but with my luck as soon as I was hired the military would be calling me telling me they finally had my ticket ready to join my husband. So I stay home, don't make any definite plans past a couple of days and for the most part seclude myself. The secluding myself part is done completely by choice. I have many friends I could call up and hang out with but I am usually in a mood that I don't want the company of anyone because I don't want to bring down their good mood with my sad one. Anyways, that was one long explanation of why there have been one liners of the same thing over and over again the past couple of weeks. I don't think anyone really reads this thing anyways so why bother to put more effort than I feel like into it? Its my personal blog and for now I like just doing my little two liners. I have been playing DragonVille a lot the past couple of days, since I added it a week or two ago I have been hooked on trying to get the limited edition dragons of this month before they disappear. It is really hard though. Today my husband bought a new smart phone which I am a little miffed about for multiple reasons I don't really want to get into and then I went to the store to pick up one thing and had to literally force myself to walk out of the store before I spent money on unnecessary things that I did not need at all. I am once again unhappy with my hair color, I would really like to go for more of a red but my husband has already told me he doesn't really care for that color because I am torn. I want something that he will like I know its my hair but right now I am just bored with it. Really bored with it. I think I am just in a down in the ditch mood and I need a serious bought of retail therapy. Not that I will get it of course, what money? But maybe some window shopping tomorrow will help improve my outlook.

Baby, I write you a message everynight, I miss you, I love you, you are my world. But please stop buying things! I wanna go to italy! LOL, I know we will go and you allready have it all planned out but I gotta give you a bad time about something. I will talk to you in the AM babe. Hugs and Kisses, all my love.

Day 288

Long very emotional day. I'm hoping I will wake up to good news in the morning.

Love you baby, forever and always

Day 287

I am really tired of these daily blog posts but I refuse to stop until I am In my husbands arms again!

It was really good to hear from you baby. I love you!

Day 286

Been a long day.

Miss you so much baby! XOXO

Day 285

Just having a nice relaxing evening and missing my husband very much.

I love you baby. So so much. I miss you tons. All my love.

Day 284

Having an anime night with my sis. Came so close to being able to talk with the hubs today but the Internet cut out or something unfortunately.

I miss you so much love. I hope you are able to really log on soon.

Day 283

Today was very long and I'm exhausted. So I am going to sleep and hopefully dream of my loving husband.

I miss you so much baby. I wish u could at least message me to let me know your ok. All my love forever and always. XOXO

Day 282

Still trying to get schedules all in order and figure everything out. Been depressed the last couple of days but trying to get over this bump. Can't believe it's been so many days.

I really miss you love. Stay safe.

Day 281

I have some major changes in the works for all nine of my blogs. So stick around to see those. You may have already noticed I added more pages. That's just one of the little things I'm doing. That's right it's time for the blogs to be revamped

Babe I haven't talked to you in a little over 24 hours. I miss you a lot. I hate being unable to talk. I love you baby I hope I will hear from you soon. XOXO

Day 280

So most of my uploads have been done via my iPod thus the shortness in their lengths. One of these days I will log back onto my computer and post something longer but for now I am going to be content with this.

I love you husband and miss you so much. Stay safe for me baby. Dreaming of you every night.

Day 279

Had an amazing mothers day with my mommy today but I am so tired.

I really miss you baby. Stay safe.

Day 278

It's been a good day I got the house all cleaned up so mom wouldn't have to do it in preparation for mothers day. Have a great meal plan for tomorrow. And I had the sweetest call from my husband. Overall shaping up to be a great start to the week.

I love you my baby. Sleep well and have an amazing rest of your weekend.

Day 277

I didn't think it would be this many plus days until I got to see him again, its getting really hard to continually write these posts everyday because although it does signify one day closer, its also signifies another very long day that has gone by. Some pluses, I am almost completely healthy again, going to start exercising on Monday. I am obsessed with my iPod. Since my smart phone decided to commit technology suicide its been my source of entertainment. I am once again in my asian drama obsession phase. And of course I am missing my husband terribly so with that note I am going to go watch a romantic drama.

Love you hunny, miss you bunches. You have no idea how slowly my days are going. Each one feels like a year. I hope you had a great day and have an amazing weekend. I miss you so much love.

Day 276

Make a wish it's 11:11 I wish my baby has an amazing day!

Love you sweetheart XOXO

Day 275

SSDD

I miss you baby

Day 274

Ugh this distance needs to be gone already I am missing my husband so much!

I love you my heart and soul. Soon I will be in your arms again!

Day 273

I know my posts have been very short but I haven't had much to write. I miss my husband and there is nothing new going on in my life as usual. Just waiting until I get to be with him in person once again.

I miss you hunny <3 XOXO

Day 272

I am sick but had a great day talking to my husband and tucking him into bed.

I miss you so much hunny.

Day 271

The moon is so gorgeous I will fall asleep staring at it.

Baby I wish you were here so we could watch the moon together. I miss you so much.

Day 270

Tired, possibly heading to bed very soon.

I miss you so much my love. Please tell me this distance will be over soon. XOXO

Day 269

Home at last relaxing in my warm bed. Hubby is grumpy this morning so I am just going to watch some anime then head to bed.

Love you babe XP

Day 268

It's been a long day. I will go into details another time. Right now I am tired.

Love you hunny and miss you and I really wanna cuddle with you!

Day 267

Its been a long day and my fingers are sore from cleaning so short post. One of these days I will write a long one again.

I miss you hunny, so much. Why can't I be there with you yet? Dumb paperwork. Have a great day XOXO

Day 266

Staying with some friends and helping them out. Things got off to a rocky start but smoothed out. And I got to talk to my husband. Good night.

Love you hunny hugs and kisses muah!

Day 265

I have a very long day ahead of me... Well week actually so this post will be short.

Love and miss you babe. XOXO

Day 264

Woke up to a skype call from my love. Second best way to wake up in the whole world. The first, of course, being waking up and rolling over with him being beside me. Its been a long hard couple of days so I am hoping with the beginning of a new week things get better. Thrilled though that so much progress is being made. We may have found an apartment. Fingers crossed.

Love you baby so much! I hope you sleep well. Hugs and Kisses my sweet!

Day 263

I have been in a mood all day. F this S.

I miss you baby, make the distance disappear now please.

Day 262

It has been a killer long day and I am doing some much needed relaxing before I pass out.

I love you baby, really wish you were here to give me a much needed massage, and then I could give you one also because I know you need one too. XOXO

Day 261

Going to keep it short tonight, burnt my wrist on the crock pot at dinner, scalding hot liquid  not fun, its still tender. I did make a cake with homemade fondant which turned out pretty good and the final paperwork was e-mailed to me and i forwarded it to my husband. Yay for progress.

I love you so much babe, so close now, so close!

Day 260

Been a long day, talked to my love briefly this morning, he was super tired so he went to bed. Then got a lot accomplished with my sister and helped my brother-in-law with some of his schoolwork. Now I get to soak my piercings in chamomile tea bags for a bit to help heal them and then go to bed. So while i soak i am going to enjoy 30 Rock.

Love you baby with all my heart. Hugs and Kisses and have a great day!

Day 259

So, yesterday my internet went out and today I figured out a way to get it back up and running. Thankfully it hasn't quite on me again since but it very well could. It really sucked too because my husband passed his pt test with flying colors and he wanted to call and show me his happiness and I had to miss it because without internet I cannot webcam, and I am limited to my phone. That's what I used to post last night and that is why it was so incredibly short, I cannot write long posts on my phone. In addition to getting the internet up and running today, I also got a killer deal on a pair of shoes at Ross, I got them for ten dollars and they were originally forty. It was a great deal. And I got a couple more lingerie outfits, which made me very happy. I love buying shoes and lingerie. Unfortunately my husband has not been online all day so hopefully I will be able to talk to him at some point tomorrow. I miss him a lot, and going even one day without hearing from him really sucks. We are that much closer to figuring everything out though so yay for that!

Baby, I love you and miss you and my internet is fixed so if I don't see you online tomorrow im gonna blow up your facebook wall with messages! lol, just kidding I wont do that. But I do seriously hope you are online. Hugs and Kisses my love, have a great day.

Day 258

Staying with a friend tonight.

So proud of you baby, love u with all i am.

Day 257

It has been quite a day, babysat a cute little girl for a good friend of mine and then had an emotional evening with my husband. Good, but emotional. I miss him so much. I am going to bed, can't deal with this roller coaster any longer.

I love you and miss you baby, sleep well and take care. I will talk to you tomorrow. XOXO

Day 256

Today was good, talked to my love, got tons accomplished, hung out with a new friend, and went to the movies with my mom. I have quite a bit to do tomorrow so I am going to watch one episode of 30 rock and then hit the sack. Hopefully I will be updating some of my other blogs soon, I really need to get back on top of them.

I miss you a ton baby, watching romantic movies always make me think of us and how I wish I could hold you like the actors hold each other. They are almost a form of torture for me. I miss you so much and I love you with all my heart and I cannot wait to be with you once again.

Day 255

Good day, got half the final paperwork done and turned in, have to drive to the local base tomorrow and get the other half done. Hung out with an old friend and now I am re-organizing my photo of the day album on facebook that got all messed up.

Miss and love you babe XOXO

Day 254

Things are moving along slowly as always, nothing new to really write, just trying to pass each day as they go by and feeling miserable for the most part because I miss my husband. I have made tons of progress in 30 Rock. Which reminds me I need to update my other blogs. I just really hate the new blogger layout, its so hard to get use to. I like the old one a lot better. I think it would help if everything wasn't flat out white, its just so boring I barley even want to do my nightly posts.

Baby, I miss you, I love you, and I can't wait to fall alseep in your arms once again. I seriously cannot be there soon enough. Love you babe.

Day 253

Nothing new to post really, I had lunch with my cousin which was a ton of fun, it was so good to catch up with her. The paperwork is slowly moving, feels like a snails pace but then again everything feels that way, this morning feels like a week ago and yesterday feels like a month ago. Everything is crawling by. On the plus side I finally have my hair the style I want now I just have to figure out how to use the product in it to make it do exactly what I want. I miss my husband a ton of course, and I cannot be in his arms again soon enough. Guess I had more to write than I thought I did.

Baby, you are my world, my everything and I will always love you. Soon I will be safe and sound in your arms. Hugs and Kisses my one and only XOXO

Day 252

I know I have not been updating this blog with much info but I have just felt so drained and tired lately by the time I get around to it that I don't feel like taking the time to type out everything. I am still getting over being sick, I have lunch with my cousin tomorrow, and my husband and I are super close to being done with all the paperwork.

I miss you and love you baby, have a great day at work and don't forget to print out that form. Hugs and kisses my love.

Day 251

Finally my hair is starting to cooperate with me and do what I tell it to do. I had to throw out a bunch of makeup today and buy some new ones because my old ones were bad, that took a large chunk out of my pocket. Thankfully though I won't have to buy anything else this month.

Love you baby, really wishing I could hold you right now.

Day 250

So tired and I don't even know why but I am going to finish my episode of 30 Rock and then roll over and get some sleep. Had a really great time yesterday with my friends and today my mom and I went shopping with grandma and my sister and I think I finally found a way to make my hair do what I want it to do and look like I want. On the down side of that I totally know my style and it is of course expensive.

Missing you baby every moment of everyday. I really wish we could be cuddled up and watching this show together, soon we will be, and that will be amazing when it happens. I love you so much. XOXO

Day 249

Hanging out with a good friend tonight. Dr's appointment went well. Missing my husband so badly.
I love you babe! Talk to you in the morning XOXO

Day 248

So I am super excited tomorrow I get my physical done and then we send in the paperwork and wait for a yes or no. Its almost over! Soon I will be with my husband and I cannot wait to see him. I don't think i will be able to sleep tonight which of course will make the time pass slower. UGH! Be here friday, be here!

I love you baby so much and I miss you and just hang in there we are almost though this!

Day 247

I almost forgot!  Im just now going to bed. Got caught up in a television show.

Love you baby, stop getting me hooked on shows! Im getting to be as bad as you! XOXO

Day 246

Very sick

i miss you hunny and i really wish you were here

Day 245

Slept most of today, but at least my fever broke. Not much else to say really.

Love you baby, hope you have an amazing day at work and pt and such. I miss u so much!

Day 244 Happy Easter

I have been sick today, running a fever and wasn't able to join in on the festivities. Which sucked but what made it much better was the fact that my baby talked to me on Skype ALL DAY! He really is the best ever.

I love you so much baby! Have a great day at work. XOXO

Day 243

Got to talk to my love lots last night and quite a bit today, had lots of fun hanging out with friends and now its movie time with my momma. We are watching the replacements. Hopefully I will talk to love lots more in the morning. And its Easter tomorrow!

Love you baby, so so much. We will be together again soon.

Day 242

Today was a really good day, not only did I get to talk to my husband a ton, I also decorated Easter eggs with my family. It was actually quite fun. But I don't really feel like writing all that much tonight, I would rather enjoy watching the hubby play his video games.

I love you baby! And I am so glad I get to see and talk to you. Hugs and Kisses!

Day 241

Just got out of the theaters watched Titanic in 3D with my mom. I am really glad I had the opportunity to see it on the big screen as I was too young the first time around and it is one of my favorite movies. The 3D aspect of it killed my eyes but I think it was worth it, i just have to find a way to get rid of the pain. Made me think a lot about what I would have done had I been put in that position and I would have been right there by rose. I wouldn't have left my husbands side for all the money in the world. I always tear up at the end of the movie, and this time was no different, maybe even a little more intense because the love I feel for my husband is like Rose's for Jack times ten and I just miss him so much and everyday without him is like a stab wound to the heart. I know we are so close now, closer than we have ever been, but it just all feels so hard and I just want to hold him so much.

Baby, I miss you, I say it every night on this blog, and every night on my photo of the day but its true, I miss you so much and I don't know what to do, I want to see you and talk with you all the time because that makes it easier for me but I know it makes it harder for you to see me and not be able to hold me and I just really don't know what to do. I feel like I'm floating in the ocean half of the time, submerged in this sea of loneliness and only you can rescue me from it. But you are so far away and just hearing your voice helps me out. Every day feels like a week, I don't even remember what I did yesterday morning it all feels like a lifetime away. Time is passing so slowly baby, so until I can be in your arms once again I just have this everyday routine of talking to you when at all possible and trying to hide the pain. I love you so very much.

Day 240

So I got my dependent ID today and the pic turned out pretty good. Facebook made me really angry and I want to watch the Titanic in theaters so bad its about all I can think of. I know my posts have been short but I really do not like this new layout of blogger at all. So I don't feel like posting on it. :/

I love you baby, one more thing is finished and we are again that much closer! I miss you so much! Have a great day at work.

Day 239

Been a rough couple of days, I have been babysitting a lot and I just got two new piercings which are sore, nose and naval, I can't excersize with the naval ring for a long time so that kills my plans there. But I like it a lot so I am happy with the piercings. And I am making money from the babysitting which is awesome. I had an unfortunate situation today where I had to end a friendship and I still feel sort of sick about it but it just had to be done. Right now I am watching Gabriel Iglesies with my mom and brother in law, he is my favorite comedian. Its been a really good night.

Baby, I hope you have a great day at work and get your wedding ring soon. Hugs and Kisses love. Just for the record it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside when you call me love. I love when you call me love. Its my favorite nickname you have for me. XOXO

Day 238

Had a great day today, babysitting and spending time with my mommy, we watched the new BONES and it was EPIC! And I don't really feel like blogging. So thats it for tonight.

Love you baby, have a great day!

Day 237

Hanging with some good friends tonight and babysitting tomorrow. Super short post tonight.

Love you my dear have a great day at work.

Day 236

Today has been a really good day, I got my naval and nose pierced and have been webcaming with my love for the better part of the evening. I just switched over to the new blogger layout and I have to say blogger, I am not happy with it. It is weird and hard to understand and so bland. I liked the old layout and way of doing things much better. I know your suppose to give change a chance and whatnot but I submitted several reviews of it when it was still in beta and it still looks exactly the same as it did before. Boring to look at and complicated to navigate. Oh well, I guess I will just have to get use to it right?

Baby, I love you much and I am so glad I do not vent about this little stuff to you because I can already see what you are going to say. I am glad you like my piercings so much, I love them so I am glad you approve although it really isn't necessary that you do its just a plus for me. Anyways, I hope you have a great weekend, love you babe.

Day 235

Well, this has been quite an interesting week and a lot of stuff has happened so I think its best just to list the events and write out what happened during each one that way I don't get completely lost.

• Monday - My best friend came over to hang out with me and we talked a ton and I can't remember if we did anything else, I believe we went over to a friends house to help them move.
• Tuesday - Hung out with another best friend and went over to mutual friends new place to hang out.
• Wednesday - Hung out at mutual friends new place late at night, ate dollar store spaghetti and watched Howls moving castle.
• Thursday - Babysat and hung out with friend. Had fun doing our makeup.
• Friday - Babysat and best friend went home.

Yeah that's it for my week. It may not sound like a lot but it sure felt like it when it was all going on. Everyone wanted to hang out with me and see me and it was like AH!!!!!!

Baby, I miss you and love you so much and if I am stressing over the little paperwork I have I can only imagine what you have been going through. I love you to pieces and hope you have a great weekend. Hugs and kisses baby.

Day 234

Today was a much better day, although stressful in many ways. I am so tired of paperwork and stupid people! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways, like I said much better day but I have a lot to do tomorrow so I have to be getting to bed.

I love you baby so very much and I can't wait until I get to see your gorgeous face next. XOXO

Day 233

Day started out good... i don't know what happened. I don't feel like blogging. Stupid daily blog.

Have a good day baby I love you.

Day 232

Good day, hanging out with my friends who are more family than anything. love them lots! Been all over the place today and I am so hungry all of a sudden o.0 random. Anyways, yeah I'm gonna continue hanging out with my siblings.

I miss you husband and love you very much, I wish you were here to join me. I will be holding you tonight in my dreams.

Day 231

Today has been a great day, my bff taz is here and we are hanging out and having lots of fun she is on spring break for a week so this is my first time seeing her in quite a while. We have been talking for hours! I sent out the hubbies wedding ring today so hopefully he gets it soon. I am so spacing on what else happened today, its late and im brain dead in taz's words.

Love you baby, have a great day at work I will talk to you in the am. XOXO

Day 230

NO! We have hit the 23 triple digits! I had hoped I would have been over there by now but everything is so slow. Like the postal service. I am waiting for my final bit of paperwork that I need to fill out and such so I can send it back to him so we can submit and wait for approval. It has been a crazy long day. I got a couple of new books that look really good and my cousin started a blog which is pretty cool actually. Check it out here! It's all about what she has been through, disability rights and equality stuff. I am very proud of her because she is an amazing person and I love her to death. So yeah, go check out her blog. I also visited my aunt and grandmother today and tomorrow a good friend of mine is coming over and it will be good to visit with her and catch up. It will defiantly help keep my mind off of my loneliness. The past month has just been terrible because I miss my husband so much and its like this gnawing feeling inside of me and I just want it to be over. I know we are so close now, but it still feels so far away! You have probably gathered that though if you are an avid reader of my said blog here. Speaking of which, if you are, leave a comment or hit the follow button. I would very much appreciate it. Yes this blog is for my own personal thought vomit but I like to hear from people and get a feel for who reads about this sort of stuff. Of course my other blogs I started sort of fell by the wayside, I will work on fixing that though because I really do want to avidly keep up with each and everyone of them but since I don't do much stuff different everyday there isn't really all that much to talk about like I thought there would be.

Baby, I loves you uber much as you already know because I say it and I hope I show it just as much so you feel the love pouring from me. I miss you so much, I am tired of curling up by myself at night and I know you are too. Its hard but we can make it. Just a couple more months babe. We are strong. We have each other, and lets face it, we have been through worse. Hugs and kisses for you my love, lots and lots of hugs and kisses and I will talk to you soon. I hope you have an amazing day at work and sleep lots tonight. XOXO

Day 229

Its been a LONG day, and I am very ready for bed. I miss my husband very much and I am quite cranky lately. Depression is setting in. The days feel like years. Like this morning felt like forever ago. Not ok. Time needs to pass quickly.

I miss you baby and I love you very much. I hope you have a great day tomorrow and that you sleep well tonight.

Day 228

Dyed my hair tonight and it turned out more red than I would have liked. I miss my husband and my head is just pounding from allergies so I am keeping this uber short tonight.

I love you baby so very very much and I can't wait to see what you think of my hair!

Day 227

Ok, seriously, its been far too long since I have seen my husband and felt his warmth. Webcam is getting old but what can I do? It's all I have, and it keeps me going. I have no birth control in my system so I am an emotional wreck. Everything anyone says I take personally, I have no sense of humor and I cry at the drop of a pin. I am seriously going crazy. I just want to be with my husband. Mail, hurry up and get here so I can do what I have to and send the form back to him. I am so tired of this, I miss him so much it hurts. And if I am like this I can only imagine how he is feeling. This distance thing really sucks. I think I need to watch sappy movies just to cry until I can't cry anymore but I am already so tired of crying. I am so tired of being alone, I am so tired, and drained, physically and emotionally and mentally and its all so much and I thought I would have seen him by now I need his hugs and kisses and cuddles. I need my husband. Right now I feel like a child, but its true. I need him so much, it hurts so much, i love him so much I just want to be with him.

Baby, always and forever, i love you.

Day 226

Today has been good, minus the allergies kicking in. I went for a run this morning... I think it was this morning, this morning feels like forever ago. And yeah, baby sent out paperwork for me today, whoo! Should have it around this time next week. Can't wait. So close!

I love you baby and I miss you tons and I cannot wait to see you in the flesh again. XOXOXO Have a great day!

Day 225

My hormones have been going haywire today, I do not like it at all. One minute I am pissed the next I want to cry and then to top it off I am incredibly frustrated at the drop of a dime. Today has just really sucked, I just want to curl up next to my husband and cry for an hour straight. Ugh! Maybe I will have to go back on birth control sooner than I wanted to.

Baby, I really miss you right now, like a lot a lot, and I just really want you to hold me. The next couple of months can't pass soon enough. I miss you like crazy. I love you baby!

Day 224

It has been a great day, and I have an amazing husband. I just want to throw that out there because I am feeling especially lovey tonight.

I miss you baby, so much and all I want to do is curl up in your arms. I know that soon I will be able to so I hope each day passes quickly until I can be in your arms once again.

Day 223

Yesterday feels like forever ago, although I did have a lot of fun today. I was spoiled and got to talk to my love for an uber long time. I just love him so very much. I did randomly burst into tears, but thats just because of haywire emotions. Now that I am off the birth control who knows how often that will happen.

I love you baby! I miss you lots, and I could really go for a heavy dose of the  cuddles right now. I am making a cuddle board on pinterest thats how bad I want some. XOXO I hope you have an amazing day and I will be cuddling with you all night long in my dreams.

Day 222

It's St. Paddy's Day! And I did my nails and makeup for the occasion. I am so green! lol. And I got to talk to my love and he was drunk and really funny and I really wish I could have been there with him. Holidays really suck without him, even a small one like today. But I am going out to hang out with some of our really good friends. So that will be fun.

I love you baby! I miss you! and as soon as I am there you are never getting rid of me for any holiday! lol. XOXO sleep well <3

Day 221

Ok, so I am a little late on this post, but I was having the most amazing conversation with my hubby so you will have to forgive me. With that being said it is very late and I am tired and going to bed. Today was an AMAZING day.

I miss you love, so so much. I cannot wait to be in your arms once again, you are my everything. <3

Day 220

Today has been really good! I did nail stuff and found the recipes I want to make for the party I am going to on Saturday. Talked to my hubby for a couple of hours which made me a very happy wifey. Lol, speaking of wifey thats what his friends call me they say "Hi wifey" or "Hi wifey person" it is quite comical, but good to know he calls me wife when I am not around. The only down side is I have had a killer headache all day long and I really hope it goes away soon.

BABY! I hope you enjoy your nice long weekend and have a good time on St. Paddys Day. I wish I could be there with you to go all out and celebrate and be your designated driver so you could get hammered if you wish, but don't worry I will totally make up for it next year. I cannot believe it has two hundred and twenty days since you left, it feels like years have passed, but we will be together again soon. I love you so much!

Day 219

So I guess today was Pi Day its 3.14.12 and 3.14 is the square root of pie, anyways its a big deal or something, I don't really know but I just wanted to say that I did celebrate by eating a piece of pie. Now onto more important things, I woke up in the best way ever this morning, my hubby called me and woke me up. I cannot tell you how happy that made me, really. Then I spent a couple of hours online doing random stuff, then I talked to my hubby again before he went to bed and he said I post way too much on the internet. I guess in a way I do but I try not to post anything too personal, and more just random useless stuff that no one cares about anyways. Or at least that's the goal, I think I do a good job of it too. After my hubby said goodnight I went over to a friends and we went out and spent the day window shopping and it was tons of fun. It was really good to socialize and get out of the house, and though I am not too keen to do it again any time soon, I will be spending Saturday evening at the same friends house celebrating St. Patrick Day, I am going to paint my nails green tomorrow in preparation.

Baby I am so exhausted, I miss you lots and really wish I could curl up beside you right now in your warm loving arms. I hope you have a good work day, miss you XOXO

Day 218

It has been a very long day, I went to the doctors and had my Birth Control removed, finally. It majorly effected my body in a bad way (period for four months straight) and I am glad to say that it is gone and out of my system. Hopefully now my body can go back to being normal. I was not able to talk to my hubby on cam before work this morning, it was just "one of those days" where I am pretty sure he was running late or something. Its days like these I really wish I could be there and give him long kisses when he wakes up, start his shower, make him a cup of coffee, have a small breakfast ready for him so all he has to do is get up, shower, kiss me and walk out the door. I really cannot wait until I am with him just so I can do the small things like that. Mornings like these are also what makes the distance harder, because I can't be there for him doing what I want to be doing and should be doing as his wife. It is tough and I know we have already made it though so much and we are so close now, I just wish we were there and could move forward together.

I love you baby, I hope you have a great day, and that work goes smoothly and that you have a fun day after work, maybe some drinks with the guys, or a good workout at the gym, whatever will put a smile on your face. I really do love you so much and I miss you so bad. Hang in there, we are so close baby, so close. XOXO

Day 217

So I woke up to this horrible knot like feeling in my throat, what a great way to start out the day right? and proceeded to do nothing for several hours. Then I called and talked to my husband briefly, and showered then went out to do some errands. When I got back my tricare packet info was in the mail so I looked it over, but I really don't understand it at all, and then I ate dinner, watched some eureka with my mom and now I am blogging while I wait for Justin to get online, if he ever does get online that is. I may just hit the sack early because I am super tired. I have a long day tomorrow, getting my birth control removed from my arm. It is going to be very painful and I am not really looking forward to the procedure.

Baby! Get up! TALK TO ME! lol, yeah right like that ever works huh? Your probably out and about doing your morning stuff, I really don't know but I hope you are able to get online soon. I miss you lots and I love you very uber much and I really wish you were here to curl up with me and comfort me because I am really freaked out about tomorrow. I know that your head will be with me though, as well as your heart. I love you so much baby, we are so close now. XOXO Have a good day.

Day 216

I am going to keep it short, but I just wanted to say I LOVE MY HUSBAND!

I LOVE YOU BABY! See its super short post tonight. XOXOXO Have a good day at work.

Day 215

So something bit by baby or something cuss he was a total grump today! All snappy at me and stuff, made me cry (I am overly sensitive) and then a couple hours later he called me and apologized for being such a dick. Made me feel a lot better that he acknowledged his mistake and my feelings. Then we just sat on the webcam for several hours not talking. He was getting really angry at his vids though.

Love you baby, I hope you get plenty of rest and have a much better day tomorrow. Sweet dreams.

Day 214

So today was a pretty good day, I got all my bank stuff I needed taken care of, ate tons of junk food, and hung out with a good friend. Overall not a bad day. The only down side is that I didn't really get to talk to my hubby all that much which saddens me. But tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I will get to talk to him then.

Baby, I don't care if you are busy if you are online when I wake up tomorrow I am calling you. Why? because its the weekend and if I don't talk to you when I can I wont get to because you have crazy fun weekends. Lol, I love you baby, very very much and I miss you tons. Tons tons tons. I really wish I could cuddle up in your warm arms right now, that would make everything so much better.

Day 213

I am uber tired so we are gonna keep this short. got shoes, went for run, body hurts.

Love you  baby, please call soon so I can sleep. XOXO Have a good day.

Day 212

So today was good, my hubby wanted some man time this morning so I went out and got stuff taken care of instead of webcaming with him. That was kind of weird actually, I really didn't get a lot of other important stuff taken care of but I did watch a really interesting video on facebook that a friend sent me. Its below if you want to give it a look. It really makes you think. I had no idea about any of this, it really goes to show how absorbed everyone gets in their own lives and how little attention many of us pay to countries outside of our own.

Baby, I really hope you are not falling asleep right now because I don't want you to be late for work and I have no idea how I would wake you up at this point and I think you just fell asleep. Please say you set an alarm. I love you much much and I hope you have a great day! I am going to try and wake you up now. XOXOXO

Day 211

So I did end up talking to the hubby last night and it was great! And then I talked to him again this morning while he played his new Mass Effect 3 game and we talked and figured out what type of dog we want to get first. We haven't really figured out the when yet. Then I went to a friends house and visited with her, it was really great catching up, and then ran by the bank and came home and worked out for an hour-ish. That felt really good, but my back is kinda hurting me now. And can I just say belly dancing is hard? It is, my stomach hurts and I think I am bloated so I am none too thrilled. I did eat basically three whole meals today (kinda) Which is more than I have eaten in a really long time and also I can't remember what else I was going to say.

Baby! I hopes I talks to you tonight too I loves you mucho much and I really really want to curl up and fall asleep in your arms next to your warmth. I miss you so much.

Day 210

So today was a little disappointing. I was unable to get my awesome new running shoes because they sold out so now I have to wait until wednesday, I only pawned my hard drive for the Xbox my husband sent me for twenty dollars, and I didn't start any of my fitness stuff. On the plus side I did see some friends who are going through a rough time, and there kids and that was nice. Um, talked to my husband for a really long time this morning and that made me happy and I don't think I will be talking to him before work because he is busy this morning which is kinda sad because I usually talk to him every morning. Hm, not much else to write, it was overall a bland sort a day with little hints of excitement here and there. Can I just say I cannot wait until I am in my husbands arms? I miss him so god damn much.

Baby I love you and I miss you and I am sending you tons of mental loving right now. I hope that you have a good day at work. XOXOXO

Day 209

It has been a very good day. I talked to my love for several hours this morning, well not really talked but we webcamed and me made me laugh so hard, it felt good getting back to semi normal. And then I helped my mom reorganize her cupboards and clean and then we spent the evening watching my boys. It was a very relaxing, fun day. I feel like doing sit ups or something right now. Getting my shoes in the morning and I cannot wait!

Baby! I loves you! Thank you for the shoes! I have never been this excited over a pair of tennis shoes, ever. But I am super happy and I loves you! I already said that didn't I. Hm, Well I hope you have a good day, I will talk to you soon.

Day 208

So this morning I rolled over and tried to call my hubby on Skype, he didn't answer so I waited a half hour and then tried calling again, he still didn't answer so I wait an hour and then send him a message and he calls me. Turns out he was lying down in bed because he is still feeling very under the weather. I felt so bad! But he talked to me for a little bit then went to lay back down and I think slept through the night. I was finally able to find helpful salespeople and a pair of running shoes that I actually love. I told the hubby when I called tonight, his morning, and he told me to go ahead and buy them and not to push myself as I am training myself to run. The shoe store actually had me try them on and then go running in them, it was odd, I have never had a store do that before. Anyways, I am going to call them tomorrow and see if they are open so I can go pick up the shoes. I am really very excited. And then me and mom watched an episode of Supernatural when we got home, had dinner, and then watched several hours of My boys on Netflix. One of our favorite shows. And now I am talking to my hunny.

Baby! Thank you so much for buying me an amazing pair of shoes. I know that I am making the purchase but its your cash and I consider it a gift from you and I am very thankful. I have not had a really good pair of shoes in probably my whole life. So thank you. I love you oh so very much, I seriously can't wait to start training just so I will be able to run with you when I get to Germany. I am very excited about this. Hugs and Kisses!

Day 207

It has been an excruciatingly long day. I am ready for it to be over so I can wake up and talk to my love. Not much to write, still not feeling well. Hope I get better soon.

Love you baby, hope to hear from you soon.

Day 206

So today I had an episode of word vomit. You know when your talking and your brain is telling you to shut up but words just keep spilling out of your mouth until you have completely pissed off everyone around you? Yeah, well that happened to me today, several times. I just don't have any luck this year. The only real good thing that has happened is I was able to marry the man I love with all my heart. Most everything else has been crap. Like today I went into Big 5 because my husband told me they would be able to tell me what sort of arch I had and what sort of shoes I needed for running. Well the woman was a complete bitch, totally unhelpful. I went in and said I needed help finding a pair of running shoes because I didn't know what I needed and she responded with What type do you need? Really woman? because i didn't just say I was completely clueless to what I needed. From there it just went downhill and when I told her I needed to know what sort of arch my foot was so my husband would be able to order me shoes if he wanted she was like That's not how it works. Um, thanks you are so incredibly helpful. But I tried on the shoes she suggested, waited five minutes and no one came to check on me to see how I was doing. They were not comfortable and I had no idea why or what else I needed to look for. The lady just really pissed me off. So now I need to go in somewhere else and try to get some help so I can get a good pair of shoes and start training myself so I will be able to run with my husband. I can't even make it 1/4 of a mile and he can run 5. I need to get started asap. I wanted to cry when I left big 5. I don't think i have ever had such poor service. And then my dinner from A&W was horrid, burnt and gross and made my stomach turn every which way. It was just not a good day. Lucky me I was able to talk to my husband and although he was still a little ticked at me from my word vomit earlier he was able to move past it and make me laugh before he headed out for work.

Baby, I love you so much. Thank you for all of your patience, I need a lot and this is a new experience for the both of us. We knew it wouldn't be easy but if we handle everything the way we have been we will be just fine. I am truly sorry for my words that upset you, but please lets not bicker anymore until I am able to be there in person. I just want some happy non stressful days. I am so tired. I know you are too. So lets do our best to make it all work out like we have been doing. You truly are an amazing man and I am very much in love with you. Hugs and kisses baby, have a great day and I will talk to you after work. XOXO

Day 205

So I did something a little bit crazy today, I made several new blogs... four in total. I am not really sure why I did this, I don't like posting on this one more than once a day because then it would mess up my count and I guess sometimes I just want to write about stuff not for the daily post so I made a blog for each of my interests. There were several other ones I wanted to make too but I was able to reign myself in thankfully. So now I have to try to keep up with six different blogs... good lordie what did I get myself into? lol.

I have been feeling very nauseous and super tired all day. Guess I really have come down with the flue. Nothing tastes right which I think really sucks. The blog has a new layout though, what do you all think? Like? Dislike? All my blogs match each other now. Makes me happy. I think it's the Virgo in me, I have to have it all organized and done a certain way, which is why I have so many different blogs so I can keep all the categories separated. Just a random thought I had on my mind, it seems like no matter where I go I can't get away from the military. Its in songs and adds and television shows and some days I just want to forget all about it. The only thing I want to associate myself with is to see my love, try to forget the situation we are in for just a brief period of time and pretend that I will see him again tomorrow. Of course I know this is an impossibility but sometimes I just feel so depressed.

Anyways love, no matter how depressed or lonely I am I know that I always have you and I love you very much forever and ever. I can't wait to see you and hear your voice, but most of all I can't wait to hold you and feel your warmth. You are my everything and when we are apart my world is incomplete. I miss you baby. I love you. Stay safe and have a good day.

Day 204

I feel sick, and I just want to be held. Why is this distance so hard?

I miss you baby, so very much. Sending my love your way, always and forever.

Day 203

Skyping with my love, gotta love technology.

Love you baby, hugs and kisses.

Day 202

So I actually did stuff today. Lets see, it started out with waking up and messaging my baby, and then my mother-in-law messaged me and we finally got the corset business figured out so that is ordered and on the way (my first real corset, can't wait!) and then I Skyped with my love for several hours and a friend messaged me asking me to go shopping with her and I love shopping so I said yes. She picked me up and we went to one mall then we were going to go to another but we ended up driving around this beautiful little town and looking at all the gorgeous houses. Needless to say I had an amazing day. When I got home I watched a little bit of Celtic Thunder with my mommy and now I am all snuggled up in bed ready for sleep.

Baby, I hope you got plenty of sleep and are well rested for the busy day ahead of you. I love you tons and I hope to talk to you at some point today but If I can't I do understand. I miss you tons, will be dreaming of your warm loving arms tonight. XOXO

Day 201

What can I say? I just really miss my baby. I have had several break down days and I am ready for them to go away now.

Baby, lets talk about the happy times in the past and the happy times ahead. I love you forever and always.

Day 200

It has been two hundred days since he left. I miss him so much, i just really want to give him a great big hug.

I love you baby, can't wait to see you in the morning. I miss you.

Day 199

Tonight was hard. Watching him get ready for work was painful, I wanted to hold him tight and see him off, but all I had was his image on my computer screen. It set me off, tears falling every which way, everything I have been holding in came flooding out, painfully. I cried to my mom like a child, as she held me and helped me as best as she could. I just want to be with my husband. That's all. Even if I just had one day to hold him, that would help me make it through the next couple of months without him. I miss him so much.

My dear love, I miss you so much, I wish so much I could wake up to you each and every morning, roll over and kiss your lips and see you off to work. I wish I could be there when you got home, to cuddle up to you while you played your xbox. I just want to feel your warmth. I just want to be in your presence. I just want to be with you. I love you so much.

Day 198

I got a ton done today, but now i feel really sick because i ate too much at dinner. Ugh i wanna throw it all up. I know that is horribly nasty but its how i feel.

Baby please get on soon so i can talk to you and then pass out while i writhe in pain. I love you uber muchness. Hugs and Kisses.

Day 197

Baby was so cute today, he was so tired from this weekend that he was sitting in his chair and we were talking and he was like "I'm just gonna go to bed." and then he literally fell asleep in his chair. Like before I could even snap my fingers he was out of it. It was so cute!!!!!! And he would be so mad if he saw this, but i'm pretty sure he doesn't read my blog so im probably safe.

Baby I miss you like crazy. Moments like today make me so thankful for the technology we have, but it hurts to see your amazing face, hear your sweet voice, and not be able to hold you. I would take that pain over the other any day though. The alternative is not seeing or hearing from you at all, and we have done that and it was ten times worse. I love you so much, have an amazing day. Hugs and Kisses from me to you.

Day 196

Ah, it doesn't get much better than sitting in my comfy bed and watching my baby play his video games, of course it would be ten times better if he was actually here, but all things considered this is the best it gets over webcam and distance.

Aw, baby, how I miss you. I love listening to you play video games because you get so intense and you are uber funny! I can't wait for the talky time that is sure to come later. I love you so so much. Have a great, amazing day at work!

Day 195

If web-caming until we fall asleep is the closest I can get to sleeping with my husband, by darn I will take it. Lucky me that's what we are doing right now, falling asleep on each other. So of course you will understand if I keep this short.

Baby I LOVE YOU! That is all. Sleep well XOXO

Day 194

Ah, its been such a good day, I am currently on webcam with my love and he has friends over and they are all arguing about something or other and it is really quite entertaining. I am tempted to make myself a drink and join in but then I think nah! Let them have their fun. Its so entertaining.

Baby I loves you! Sorry I keep interrupting your friend time, but If i don't talk to you when you have people over then I would never talk to you cuss you would call me and fall asleep within five minutes! lol, I miss you like crazy. Love you babe.

Day 193

I am keeping this real short as i am going to bed on webcam with my love.

Baby, i love you so much. Sorry for all the arguments past, present and future. You are all to me and I love you for all eternity.

Day 192

Had a really great day today, got to talk to my baby lots and I got to see my brother! Which is awesome because I never get to see him anymore. Him and the hubby argued over cars over the webcam which was quite entertaining although I think they mostly scolded me. lol. I have once again got into role-playing and I am working on a new one hoping that it will be super active and work well.

Baby! So happy you like to spoil me because I love watching you play video games, you make the funniest faces and say the funniest things. I love you so, so much and I cannot wait to be in your arms once again. Have a great day my love.

Day 191

So today was really really good. I got to talk to my baby a lot! There was some minor drama between me and two friends and I don't really think its resolved but there isn't much I can do about it. We will just have to wait and see how that one turns out. I decided to look at baby clothes because I have tons of friends either with little ones or who have little ones on the way and I found this really cool website http://www.punkbabyclothes.net/index.html it has all types of alternative baby clothes which I love and I know a lot of my friends will love too. No I am not pregnant, nor do I plan on becoming pregnant any time soon. I just like looking at the cute shoes and onesies.

Baby I am so happy i got to talk to you today and that I was able to help you out. That always makes me feel so good knowing I can help you from half the world away. I love you so, so much. Get lots of sleep tonight and have a great day at work and I will talk to you after you have rested up. XOXO

Day 190

Ugh i keep moving wrong and twinging my shoulder and it hurts like heck! Anyways, today was Valentines day and I spent half of it hanging out with a friend and the other half watching television on the internet. I was able to talk to my love today which I didn't think I was going to be able to so that of course made me uber happy! No special dinners, no flowers or gifts, but I got to see his gorgeous face and send him off to work and that right there is ten times better than what was said before.

Baby! i really really love you and I am secretly super happy you don't make a big deal about valentines day because its a horrid holiday all about the marketing and cards. Any day I get to spend with you is a happy day for me. Have a great day at work love!

Day 189

I'm gonna keep it short tonight. I'm writing this post before baby talks to me tonight so I have no idea when he could call. It could be a minute from now or an hour or more from now. I have been watching Full Metal Alchemist: Brotherhood at the request of my hubby (its so weird typing that) and so thats what I am going to continue watching until he calls.

Baby I love you and I cannot wait to see your gorgeous face tonight and hear that sweet voice. I'm getting butterflies just thinking about it. See you soon love!

Day 188

Ok, so now that I have a ton of time to write, I'm actually going to write! I am married, officially, legally wed. It is weird seeing my last name as his, I haven't even practiced my signature yet, even though I am definitely going to have to get a start on that soon. My mom is amazing and threw me a beautiful bridal shower, and my best friend threw me a surprise bachelorette party, since we were all underage it was very clean except a certain shaped cake and pin the macho on the man game. Those were pics that did not go up on Facebook. At my bridal shower I got a crock pot, rice maker/food steamer, pizza stone, stoneware casserole dish, onion tomato and garlic keepers, double spoon rest, OPI nail lacquer and some gag gifts like the honey do whistle, honeymoon survival kit, and random dice. Justin saw the whistle and was like "I'd break that in one day!" which is the reaction I knew he would have lol. His mom brought me a marble rolling pin which was really pretty and his dad and step-mom gave us 100 for when I get over there we can pick out something we both want together. Maddi and mom put together a collage picture frame for me which is pics of me and Justin when we were little and in high school. I think that was honestly my favorite gift. Now I have to go out and buy thank you cards, fill them out, and pray to god I remember to send them. I totally forgot about them after my graduation party and I didn't remember until just a couple days ago and I graduated over a year ago. Yeah I am bad about little stuff like that.

Baby, I am so happy you liked the stuff I picked out. And that your anime is so epically awesome. I wish I could be cuddled up right next to you watching it. You are, and will always be, the light and love of my life. I am so blessed to say that I get to spend the rest of my life by your side and I can't wait to actually get there and be with you. Hang in there, not too long and we will be together again. I love you.

Day 187

So today was my bridal shower and bachelorett party and it was pretty awsome. Got lots of fun pics, and cool presents. I also got a pic of my love when he was a baby. Kisses and hugs! Its awsome. And now we are going to watch movies so its going to be short.

I love you baby so much and I really wish you were here to share in this stuff with me even though its technically for me only. I can't wait to have a good long webcam convo with you and tell you everything! I miss you so much, talk to you tomorrow!

Day 186

Today was such a good day! I got a ton of sleep, and talked to the love of my life for like three hours! Granted I slept for one and a half of them, but the point was is that he was there, and when I woke up with a start I could see him on my computer screen playing his zombies on the Xbox. And that is as close to perfect as my life gets right now. Seeing him, listening to his voice, and feeling the love even though we are a hundred thousand miles apart.

Baby, I love you so much, and today was so amazing. Even though we are miles apart I feel as loved as if you had your arms around me while I slept. You are an amazing man and I am so lucky to be able to call you mine. I belong to you, always and forever.

Day 185

After yesterdays post, I don't really know what to write about. I feel the same as I did a week ago, should I feel different? Im legally bound to the love of my life, but I felt like we were soulfully bound a long time ago. I took his last name, and that is taking some getting use to. Random people (family) call me by my new last name and it feels weird, takes a second to realize they are talking to me. lol. I am really exausted, spent a good portion of the day on the road so im going to keep this short, im sure one of these days when I have energy i will write a big long post about it all but honestly your lucky to be getting even this tonight. I almost forgot about it.

Baby! I love you and that will never change. I love how we havn't changed either with how we talk. Now you just joke about being stuck with me more, you joked about it before though so i just laugh at you. I miss you tons and I hope you have a great day at work. Hugs and Kisses!

Day 184 - I am Married!

Its been one hundred and eighty four days since Justin left to his new home in Germany but today it was made official through the state of Montana, we are legally bound in matrimony. I am so happy. I was able to talk to him on webcam and that was really great, although I am still holding back tears because I don't really want to cry on what is officially my wedding day. The only official one I will ever get and we are thousands of miles apart but I was still able to see his face and laugh with him. He really is the greatest man in the whole world and I love him with my whole heart.

Baby, even though we couldn't be together the day we were legally bound it was still an amazing experience to share with you. Thank god for technology. I don't know what I would have done if I hadn't been able to see you tonight and share a small part of this great day with you. I love you.

Day 183

I am writing this post early tonight but I am so tired I want to make sure it is written and I don't forget it. Today was a good day, just long. Not really going to write a whole lot.

Baby, thank you so much for every second you give me of facetime I love you very much and being able to see your face, even for just a moment makes my day. Love you.

Day 182

Oh its been a long day I am very ready for bed. We got a lot done today and I got to webcam with my love so that made me uber happy! Its gonna be a short post tonight.

Love you babe, hope you have a great day and I will talk to you again soon.

Day 181

Woke up today and webcamed by love but he had a friend over and was playing video games and I was so out of it I didn't register he made fun of me for a full ten minutes until after we hung up. But I spent time with my mommy lots and webcamed with baby for quite a few hours which of course made me a very happy woman! And then I drove to my friends house and now I will be here for the next couple of days helping her out while I can.

Baby, you are the very best ever! I love you so so much! Hugs and Kisses and have a great day! Love you!!!!!!

Day 180

So today was really quite good. It started off at five A.M. with a text from my love telling me he had sent me an e-mail. I read it and it turns out he got a great deal on the virus protection for our computers. So when I woke up this morning I listened to a song he sent me which was amazing and then downloaded the new antivirus. Then his dad called and asked if they could come over to our house instead of us going to them and that worked out really well I think and they came over this afternoon his dad and step mom and met with my mom and her boyfriend and they were here for three-ish hours and there was only one awkward pause which was really great. They all got along with each other really well. It made me very happy. And then I had a friend come over to the house which I hadn't visited with in a very long time so that was really nice. We were talking for at least five hours. We did get on the topic of religion which can be touchy with her because I am pagan and she is christian but it went over very well all things considered. I made myself sound like a crazy person, but that's normal for when I explain my beliefs.

Thank you so much baby for the awesome antivirus you bought, I love it! and good news, our parents got on well. Now my mom just has to meet yours and my dad everyone including you. That's the one thing that sucks about family being so far away. Anyways, we are so close now I love you so much! This is all really happening it feels like a dream. Have a great nights sleep I will talk to you soon.

Day 179

Today was a good day, I got to talk to my baby a lot tonight and I am happy to say that he had a very good time. Its his weekend. Tomorrow we are doing one fourth of the parent meet and greet, my mom and his dad which is just barely in time before we are officially married which should be next week between wednesday and Friday sometime, I am not quite sure when right now but you can be sure on the day I will have a lot to write about.

Well baby, we are so very close now and I know I have butterflies. Just imagine what will be in my stomach a couple of days before I join you, giant butterflies or grasshoppers or something. But I am so excited. I cannot wait to spend my life with you and discover together all the adventures we will have. It wont be easy but I know we can make it though anything because our love is strong. You are my only one, forever. Sleep well baby.

Day 178

So today started out OK, I was up until two in the morning freaking out because I watched hoarders, never watching that show again unless I want to get into the freak clean mode. I picked up my room and made some progress, I need more boxes though because my books have used up all the ones I had and there are a lot more to pack up. I got to talk to my love on the webcam which of course made me uber happy and now I am wearing his t-shirt which has the faint smell of him that I love.

Baby, I can't wait until we are together and I can go through your clothes whenever and wear whatever t-shirts I please, although I am wearing my favorite one right now. Not really sure why its my favorite, but it is. I miss you and I love you and I wish you wouldn't pick on me quite so much even though I partly love it and partly hate it. I'm so torn and you love getting a rise out of me. You make me smile so much my jaw hurts, my cheeks hurt right now cuss I am smiling thinking about it. I really do love you and I hope you have an amazing day. We are so close now!

Day 177

I am all registered for my wedding at different stores, i probably have a lot of the same stuff but everywhere is different. I am happy me and mom got macys and bed bath and beyond done. Then me and lizzy bonded over some television which was good, we don't do that much. I was not nearly as bitchy today as I feel i have been the past week although i started watching hoarders and it makes me want to totally deep clean my room. You have no idea.

Baby, do not ever let me become a hoarder. Make me throw stuff away. Its disgusting. I dont think i will but im just saying. I love you! Have a good day!

Day 176

Today was awesome! Baby bought a new computer so we were able to Skype again and it was so good to see him! I hung out with a really good friend and she had a book I have been looking for for ages that she is letting me borrow to read so I am thrilled about that. I had to cancel some plans on some people and I feel really bad about it because I forgot I made plans on Saturday that cannot be changed and then I made plans to leave town on Friday and I had to cancel and I just feel horrible about it. But other than that little snag today was really good.

Baby, Im so happy I got to talk to you and see you and i am just so thrilled and excited and I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and do it all over again!

Day 175

I got the paperwork! It arrived in the mail today and I got it and sent it out again so we are so close to being married now its not even funny! I am so excited. I also got the beautiful ring my love sent me to replace the claddagh I lost, I am counting it as my engagement ring. So yeah, its been a very good day. I also got lots of packing done! Whoooo!

Baby! We are so close now, I love you so very much and I hope that we are able to webcam soon so you see this huge smile! Have a great day and take care. Good luck on your test!

Day 174

It has been a long interesting day, a lot has been on my mind. I tried talking to baby about it but I think i just irritated him because he had to go off to work. Dumb me not thinking before i ask perplexing questions that there is no answer to. Anyways, i just hope he is not mad and that he forgets all irritation after he gets off work tonight. Until then i will be writing stuff down in my paper journal that I cannot write on the world wide web.

Baby, I'm so sorry if I upset you or irritated you. I miss you a whole lot and hope to hear your voice soon. Have a good day at work love.

Day 173

It was a good day, my mom and best friend were planning my wedding shower so that was kinda lame just cuss i cannot be included at all and I hate not being included in planning and such. But then me and my friend hung out and had fun. Not much else to say.

Love you baby, miss you so so much. I wish i could have you next to me right now. 

Day 172

It was a good day today, talked to my baby :) hung out with a good friend and her adorable daughter. Yup yup, very good day. Baby and me argued about actors, he can't understand why I dislike actors such as nicholas cage and matthew mcconough (probably botched that) but there are just certain actors I don't care to watch. He loves everybody so eh. whatever. He did make an avatar of me on his xbox which i thought was sweet cuss he misses me just as much as i miss him.

Yes baby, I love you and I miss you and its ok to admit that you miss me lots too. Soon babe, very very soon. We are so close now, just a little longer and then I will be in your arms again. Have a great weekend love. XOXOXOXOXO

Day 171

I was sick most of today but I was really happy that my love called and i was able to talk to him. Not much else to say though really im super tired and gonna hit the hay.

I miss you baby and love you so much and I can't wait to hold you again so the world feels right. Have a great day!

Day 170

Had an amazing day today. Talked to my love on the phone, hung out with a new friend. Got a sweet baby-doll lingerie set. I'm very pleased.

Baby it was so good hearing your voice today. I miss you so much and I love you tons! Please call again soon, you have no idea what it does for me. Take care, I love you lots.

Day 169

Today was much more productive, I got two boxes of clothing packed up. Visited with a friend and had some awesome girl time. She did my makeup and it looks awesome! And alot of talking was done which was good, I definitely needed it. We need to hang out more I love her so much! Um, yeah thats all, so really not alot but it was much more productive. Now I have a pile of clothing on my bed that i have no idea what to do with, maybe i will stuff it in the clothes basket for tonight, that sounds good right?

Baby! I loves you so so much you are so so amazing and I totally miss you and really really want to hear your voice. This no computer so no webcam thing is killing me! But I have some messages recorded so I can hear you before I sleep. I miss you baby, have a great day today.

Day 168

been another long boring day, nothing to talk about.

Love you baby!

Day 167

Watching Downton abby with my momma, texting baby on messenger before he goes to work sometime today, and wasting time on facebook. Normal evening. Especially on sundays. Not a whole lot to talk about today, i've been in a bitchy mood all day and very snappy. Oh well, its life right?

Baby, i am so tired of talking over the internet. Don't get me wrong its much better than nothing and i am very grateful I talk to you at all, I just really miss you and want to spend some time with you. I love you baby very much.

Day 166

Just really irritated tonight so this is going to be uber mega short. Registered a little bit at target today, that was pretty fun actually. And then watched movies while trying not to pass out on the couch. While eating some strawberry shortcake icecream that tasted like perpermint because my taste buds are just that off. Thats right folks, I am still sick and im sick and tired of it!

Baby, I do need to talk to you when you can, not that you ever read my blog so you wont get this message, but i am mentally sending you a very strong i need you to call me message right now, only please do it tomorrow because everyone is going to bed right now. Anyways, everything is fine, i love you, i just really need to hear your voice. Have a good weekend baby.

day 165

Been watching Vampire Diaries all day and it is sooo good but i totally want it to be over so i can get some sleep. Damn cliffhangers! Im feeling much better though. Which is good.

Baby, I miss you tons! I love you I love you, Sleep well. XOXOXO

Day 164

Still battling the sickness, had a fever off and on. I hate the cold. But I am watching the Big Bang Theory and looking forward to the new episode. Bazinga! I love this show. I don't really have alot to talk about tonight so this will stay short.

I love you baby, stay safe and have a good time. Go do something fun. I miss you very much.

Day 163

Fighting fevers and dizzy spells so this is going to be super short. I got a call from my love today and it makes me super happy and totally made me feel a little better.

Baby I love you so much, thank you for the call it really made my day. I miss you tons! Take care and sleep well heart you are my everything.

Day 162

Still getting over being sick, had another slight temp today but I have stayed relatively normal. Been passing the time with Vampire Diaries which is a pretty good show when you watch it from the beginning. I tried watching it before and found it stupid but its much better if you watch the episodes in sequence. On the plus side, baby sent out the paperwork today! Yay! Hopefully it wont take longer than a week to get here.

Baby! I love you! Thank you soooo much for sending out the paperwork. One step closer to being legally married and together again. I miss you so much! Take care.

Day 161

Im sick today, fever of 101.2 this is the first time I have had a fever in forever. So I'm curled up on the couch with Charlie bear feeling like crap. Had major dizzy spells this morning and have been in pain all day. Can't really concentrate so this will stay short.

Baby I really wish you were here so I could curl up and have you take care of me. I love you so much baby, take good care of yourself. I miss you so much my heart.

Day 160

He called he called he called! I thought about him and nothing else all day and he called. It made my entire week to talk to him for that little amount of time, laugh at his silliness, and just overall feel like we were in the same room. You have no idea what just a voice can do when you are separated by distance. Its like a drink of water when you've been dehydrated for three days on the verge of death. I still have butterflies fluttering around in my stomach I'm so thrilled I got to hear from him.

Baby, I know I'm a silly blonde, but its really the simple things that make me happy and just that call from you tonight had me so ecstatic. I knew it was you before I picked up the phone because I had your ringtone set to our song.  My heart leaped a mile away as I jumped up from the dinner table and gleefully answered. I miss you so much baby, and I cannot wait until I am in your arms again. The distance is rough but I know we can make it through anything. I love you with all my heart.

Day 159

Not a whole lot to write about today, I really miss my love and its hard not hearing his voice. I called him today just to hear him and it was only a two minute phone conversation but I was reduced to tears afterwards. There is just something so calming and soothing about his voice that I panic when I think "when will I hear him next?" The paperwork has been delayed briefly but he will be sending it soon. Then we will soon be married. I just can't wait until I am in his arms again because honestly all I want right now is his warmth and comfort.

Baby, you are literally my everything. Being without you is like walking everyday through fire, and since as you know I am a creature of Ice that is quite painful. I know we will be together soon and this will all be worth it, just the journey we had to make to be together, but I want to be with you now. Dear heart, my love, take care of yourself as I continually think of you every moment of everyday. I will talk to you soon.

Day 158

Had a great day hanging out with one of my best friends. Suprisingly nothing big happened for it being friday the thirteenth. Talked to baby on the phone briefly and it made my day.

Baby you goof ball. I love you. Have a good weekend and i will talk to u soon. Hugs and kisses.

Day 157

Today was a much better day than I thought it was going to be. I had lunch with an old classmate from highschool and we got along really, really well. I was suprised. Makes me wonder why we never talked before. Then I got to watch movies on the couch with my mom and that was uber fun. Netflix was being a pain and loading very slowly though. We watched my loves favorite movie The Boondock Saints. Made me really miss him, remembering the time I curled up with him to watch it. I can't wait until I see him again im going to hold on and not let go.

Baby, I know its something small but stuff like watching a movie you love or drinking your favorite drink makes me feel closer to you, so I hold tight to Charlie Bear and kiss your dog tags and pray you can feel me as close as i can feel you. You are my everything, and I never will let you go. Please say you will never leg go of me either. I love you.

Day 156

Didn't hear from my love today unfortunately which probably means his computer went kaput again. The plans I had made for today were postponed because the girl I was suppose to hang out with was up most the night with her sick son and wasn't feeling well herself. So I spent the day watching Taiwanese Dramas and bawling my eyes out because they have some pretty emotional story lines. Well, baby is at work and just posted on facebook so that brings a smile to my face.

I love you baby, so very much and I can't wait to be with you again. Stay safe love.

Day 155

OMG I am so happy today was such a good day! I got to talk to my love for several hours over Skype, still no webcam but that is much better than nothing and I got to talk to him again this evening and he was being so funny. I just wanted to reach through the vast space between us and give him a huge kiss. I am completely hooked on a new Taiwanese drama, and I have plans to hang out with several people this week which is awesome because I will be getting out of the house. Its shaping up to be a pretty good week.

I love love love you baby and can't wait for all that is before us to fall into place. you are my world and my everything. I hope you fix your computer for good soon, I can't wait to see that handsome face of yours again.

Day 154

So yeah, I dont really have all that much to say about today, I visited my future in-laws and that was nice. I always like visiting them. Justin got the paperwork notarized and will send it to me soon, I can't wait! other than that it has been a very unproductive day. Mommy and me finished Ouran Highschool host club and I started on the live action. I think babies computer is on the fritz for good so no more webcam for a while.

Baby, I miss you uber duber much, especially when  I don't get to wish you a good morning at work. I hope you have a wonderful day and I love you so so much. Talk to you soon love.

Day 153

Well, no more video chats with my baby for a little while which is a complete and total bummer, but considering how lucky I have been so far I am not going to complain and jinx it. His computer is acting up for the umpteenth million time this year. Today was good, woke up and messaged my love and me and mommy watched more ouran high school host club because there were more episodes than I originally thought. Now we have two more to go before we are finished, so we will finish those tomorrow night. I did see my baby for two minutes today, I called him up and he was like "thats it im turning off my computer" and i was like "Im sorry" and he said "no no, not because of you, my video driver is going haywire" its actually quite funny. Got my room paprtly picked up and packed up a couple of boxes. i was hoping to get rid of most of my junk but im such a packrat I realized that is never going to happen. I have to go through every item individually and decide to keep it or throw it. Because all my junk has so many memories and some pieces even though worthless to some are utterly priceless to me.

Well dear heart, m'lord and love, I hope that your day is excellently amazing and that you get alot accomplished. I love you very very much and can't wait to talk to you again soon. One day there will be no more computers and it will just be you and me. mmmm

Day 152

Well it has been a very good day today. Not only did I have one of my best friends stay the night last night we had birthday breakfast with family and me and mommy spent bonding time watching movies. I got her to watch Ouran Host Highschool Club, an anime me and my sister really like and we are almost done watching it. Then I got a call from my baby to make my night complete.

Baby, I miss you so much. And I want you so bad. The distance will be gone soon and you will be all mine once again. I love you baby, with everything I am. Sleep well.

Day 151

Had a good day today, Taz came over and we celebrated her belated birthday with some fun juice. I mad a spiritual connection with a new person, she is really cool and it will be interesting talking to her about certain topics. Hm, not all that much to write about I guess.

Love you baby, glad you had a good guys night and I hope you have a very good day. Enjoy your weekend loves.

Day 150

Had a nightmare last nigh, posted on facebook about it. The post said "Last night I had a nightmare where a black raven taunted and toyed with me. There was a forbidden place I could not go that swallowed up all who entered and no matter how hard I tried I could not scream as the black and silver fog engulfed me where I laid. The harder I fought the deeper I sank and when I tried to kill the raven my hand passed right through it like smoke and it rematerialized. Silent Screams. My throat hurt when I awoke, maybe it was more than just a nightmare." That pretty much describes how my night went. I did however wake up to my baby letting me know he was off work and from there I proceeded to webcam with him. Best way to start the day is talking to my love. Then I finished up my anime and watched some television. I think I'm just about over this head cold, thankfully. I took a nap before my mom got home and then we ate some dinner and watched Public Enemies together starring Johnny Depp. It was a really good movie but so odd seeing him without any weird makeup on. Now I'm just doing my nightly blog and picture and watching fresh prince of Bel Air.

Baby I loves you super duper much! You are seriously my world. I am so happy I get to spend my life with you, hopefully making you as happy as you make me. I love waking up and seeing your gorgeous sexy face, love it when you sing when your getting ready in the morning and love talking to you when its nigh-time and I'm settling down for bed and you are starting your day. I can't wait until we are doing it all together everyday. Sweet dreams my love, and have an amazing day at work.

Day 149

I will admit I almost forgot to do this tonight. Today was good, talked with my baby lots and slept lots with a congested head. We had a very good smiled filled conversation before he went to work which made me uber happy and his pocket full of sunshine torture was much fun.

Baby, love you so much, but please never play that song again. Have a good day at work loves.

Day 148

It has been a long day, and I spent most of it sleeping because I didn't feel good and now of course I'm not tired, go figure. I am going to try and play one of my new games which should be fun, I guess. Baby gave me the go ahead to pay for the proxy so now we are half way there, just need to send in the paperwork and its official. I feel like crap, I've been on my period for like three months now and I have to tell you it gets really old. If there are any guys who read this blog, sorry but really it is written be a female, you should have expected something like that sooner or later. Im waiting for the doctor to call me back about my test results to find out wether im hypoglycemic or not, im probably not considering the results are in and I havn't gotten a call yet. Meh oh well, it is what it is right?

Baby, I love you so much. I say that everyday but just because I say it everyday it doesn't mean that it isn't one hundred percent true. You give me butterflies when you randomly out of the blue tell me that you love me. I think the fact I still get butterflies is proof enough. You are my everything I want in life and Im so happy to call you mine and me yours. I hope you have a great day at work baby.

Day 147

I no feel good.

Baby, i just want to hold you and kiss you and love you and cuddle with you. C'mere right now. I miss you so much.

Day 146

Had a great new years celebrating with friends and family, had a shot of liquor which im pretty sure screwed up my throat but I still had a ton of fun. New years is definitely loud. Best part of the new years was talking to my baby when he was absolutely snockered. He is soooo hilarious. Spent this evening chilling with my mamma and watching movies.

Baby, its a new year. Last year had alot of ups and downs but I look foreward to the challenges of the new year and facing them with you. Love you with my whole heart and soul. Forever and always.