Day 84 Happy Halloween!

That's right its all hallows eve and i only passed out candy this year. Sadly there was no dressing up. I will make up for that next year though. And i'll make justin dress up with me. Lol. Baby!  Its halloween and i wish u could be here to hold me while i freaked myself out with scary movies. Your good at that. Have a great day at work and goodluck to you on your schoolwork. Love ya babe!

Day 83

Another full day of schoolwork and im still not done. Glarb! My body is killing me and i wanna set everything i did on fire. Anyways im gonna do a little more than watch some anime. Babe u are amazing! Stay golden i love you. Thank you for making my schoolwork less tedious. Have a great day at work!

Day 82

Been doing homework all day and of course i have another headache. Homework is nowhere near done of course and tomorrow is sunday and the start of my last week. Fml! Anyways today was babies birthday and he turned 23 yay!!! Wish i could have been there to celebrate with you. I loves you babe, thank you for being my study buddy. Get some good rest now and we will study more when you wake up.

Day 81

Really bad headache. Babies birthday in germany so happy birthday baby. I love you to death! You are the very best and i hope to be in person for your next one. You have a gift in the mail i hope you like it. Love you baby!

Day 80... a little late

OMG! For the first time I forgot to post a day 80. I was so caught up in my homework and webcamming with my baby that it didn't even cross my mind to write this. So Im writing day 80 on the same day that I will be writing 81. I feel really bad about forgetting. I got the pictures and everything up so how on earth could I forget about this post!

Well, time has been passing ever so slowly, My finals are all due next week and then im done with school and its off to find a job and save up lots of mulah. I hope I will be able to because the way its looking right now money is going to be really tight. Plus I don't want Justin saving up everything by himself. I spent literally all day yesterday working on homework and today is just going to be a repeat of that. I am so over homework and I really need a change so maybe its a good thing I will be taking a little break from school. Now the only dilema is where am i going to find a job? Where I live there really isn't all that many people hiring and so many people are looking for jobs that people like me, with no experience, have a really hard time finding one. Plus for some reason I always fail on the personality tests. Everyone says to lie but honesty counts in my opinion so every question I am going to answer honestly. Oh well though, I will get a job eventually. Im hoping that I will actually get two or three jobs because thats how much I really need the money. School sucks of course so im super happy its almost done. Well I better get up and start my day, i really hope my babes gets online soon so I can chat him up for a little bit.

Hey baby! So sorry i forgot about day 80, and tomorrow is your birthday! I hope you go out and have lots of fun with your guy friends, sorry I can't be there in person but you know I am always with you in spirit. You are the love of my life and my best friend and I look foreward to everyday that we share together even when we are miles and miles apart. I love you baby.

Day 79

Watching a new anime my babe said was really good. So far i can see why he suggested it. Most of the voices are annoying but im working on moving past that. Its just a really weird anime. Im watching Shuffle. Weird, thats all I have to say. Baby got his computer working again so hopefully we will webcam soon, but he and I both have alot of schoolwork to do so we wont get to webcam nearly as much. My term ends on wednesday of next week and then I need to find a job, or two, or three, or four. Lol, definatly need to make some money. But everything will workout like its suppose to.

I loves my baby! You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You make me so incredibly happy! I look foreward to spending the rest of my life with my knight in shining armor. You rock! And i definatly look foreward to many anime marathons cuddled up by your side. Hope your schooling is going well. Loves loves, nighty nighty I will cuddle you in my dreams!

Day 78

I am super super tired right now. Going to give my baby the first wakeup call in a long while here in a couple of minutes. After I talk to him and get my powerpoint done for class, I am going to bed. And i just had an uber scary thought that something is due tomorrow that I dont have done so im cutting this short.

I love you baby and I will get to hear that sweet voice of yours very shortly. I hope you slept well and I loves you!

Day 77

Today I was so tired it took me a whole extra five minutes to roll out of bed, then I had to pack up my backpack and leave for school. I was stuck in an hour and a half of traffic making me a half hour late for my first class where I sat in a broken wodden stool. Then durring my second class I had to download open office three times because it kept exiting before it finished. Then I missed a call from Justin at lunch but thankfully I was able to figure out how to call him back and I talked to him for a couple of minutes before he went to sleep. Hearing his voice made me cry because I miss him so much and I just wanted to lay next to him and rub his back until he fell asleep. But after the very short (unfortunatly) call I had to go back to class and finish out lunch. I tried to nap but couldn't on the uncomfortable table. Then I finished my schoolwork early so I was able to leave early and beat the really bad traffic.

Baby, I love you so much but it was so good to hear your voice. I woves you with my whole heart and want to give you lots of squeezes and rub your back everynight for you until you fall asleep. You are an amazing man and I am so lucky to have you in my life. Take care of yourself babe and I hope that you figure out everything you need to. I will talk to you again as soon as possible. Loves you! Loves you! Loves you!

Day 76

Baby's computer broke so I probably wont talk to him for a while. Mega uber sadness there, facebook will be our means of communication. But I did pack up his birthday box and im sending it out tomorrow. I hope he likes it. I really miss him, and I wish i could spend his birthday with him. Hopefully the webcam will be up and running by then so I can wish him a Happy Birthday in Person... well, sorta in person. Thank goodness for technology, its a lifesaver right now. Lets me see my baby, and communicate with him when he is halfway around the world.

I love you baby, so much. I hope you get your computer fixed soon, not only so I can talk to you, but so you can do your homework and watch your anime. It will all work out and dont worry about any of it. You are amazing!! and I love you so so much. I wanna cuddle up to you and sleep in your heat. I dreamed of watching anime with you all cuddled up last night, it was a very good, amazing, wonderful dream. I hope to have another one just like it tonight. I will be holding you in my heart every second of every day. Sweet dreams to you baby, and I hope your workday goes amazingly. Talk to you as soon as I can.

Day 75

Got some drafting homework done, talked to my baby, printed out some pics and spent quality time with my momma. Overall it was a very good day that went by very slowly. But that's ok for today, made me feel like i had extra time with mommy. Got lots of cuddles with my kitty and found a new toothpaste i really like. So yeah everything is positive. I go back to my aunts tomorrow and then start my daily routine anew.

I love you Justin, you are the light in my life and i never will let you go withought a fight. My sexy god of fire. Sleep tight love, i hold you in my arms and heart as i sleep and as each day passes. You are always with me and one day we will be together in person again. Until know you are always on my mind and in my heart. Take care of yourself dear heart, and i will see you when i awake.

Day 74

Best day i've had in a while. I love being home and seeing my mom again. I missed her so much. Will be sad to have to go back to school on monday and not see her again for a long time.

Loved talking to my baby today. So glad we have your rings mostly figured out. And don't worry we will get gamestop taken care of. I loves you baby with all my heart. Im gonna meet you in my dreams and hold you tight until tomorrow when i get to hear that sweet voice once again.

Day 73

Today was my two year anniversary with the love of my life. I am so glad we have made it so long and we have truely come so far. We have gone through so much and overcame even more. i know we can make it through anything. I love you baby with all of my heart and soul and today was just another milestone we hit. You are everything to me and just so wonderful. I love you with all my heart. Sleep well and take care of yourself baby and tomorrow we start year three!

Day 72

So yeah, today was really long and im really tired and just want to go to sleep. Actually what I really want to do is curly up next to my baby have fall asleep on him while having an anime fest. Just feeling him, his skin against mine, and having him with me would be so amazing right now you have no idea. Baby I love you with all my heart and Im so glad I have you in my life. Take care of you and be safe my love, I will hold you in my dreamz tonight, and I hope you feel my love as you work.

Day 71

Spent several hours doing drafting today and my back is killing me. Its not done and the final is due tomorrow so im not really happy about that right now. I really can't concentrate much so tonights post is short.

I love you baby! you are amazing and you need to decide how you like your coffee so i can learn and make it for you perfect every single morning just the way you like it. You are so amazing, and so funny and sweet and just so everything. I cannot wait until we are married and i get to do little things for you like making coffee and folding laundry and just everything! I love you so much, and i hope your day at work goes swimmingly and I will talk to you when you get off.

Day 70

Its been a long day what with school and all and of course not getting to sleep until like midnight last night. And i have a ton of homework I should be doing but instead im just gong to go to sleep because im really tired and I will just cram all day tomorrow. Yeah, that sounds like a plan that wont backfire considering I will probably spend like six hours talking to the love of my life before I even get started on the drafting project and then i need to touch up the powerpoint. See, im a smart cookie because I know that i am doing something that is bad for me and I am doing it willingly because the alternative is just so much better. I will get me work done no matter what, And im sure I will get an ok grade on it too. The main reason i dont want to do drafting is because my back is killing me and I really don't want to bend over anything else right now after a whole day of drafting at school. Yeah, i think i can give myself a break. So im headed to bed.

Baby, you know I love you with my whole heart, and I will always do my best not to hurt you or cause you pain, but i will slip up and make mistakes, I will be insensitve and sometimes even cruel as you too can be, but because we love each other we step over the obstacle, forgive and forget because what we have is more important than the insignificant little things that happen. You are amazing, and have really shown me how much you care for me over the past couple of months and every little thing you do makes me fall even more in love with you even if it initially hurts, it forces me to face my own imperfections, learn form my mistakes and grow. Thank you for being the wonderful constant in my life who is always there for me no matter what and who knows when to do what even when I dont.You are amazing, and I am never letting go of you without a fight.

Day 69

Hate today, it was great until i opened my big fat mouth and threw something completely out of proportion. Thank goodness my baby knows how easily my mind carries away when im emotional and he considers the conversation over and done with. I dont but thats because my mind goes craszy psycotic and likes driving me mad. Oh well.

I love you baby, forgive me my errors I am only human and bound to make mistakes. Tonight was one that should not have happened but I am getting better at catching myself. I love you baby with all of my heart and soul and I am never letting you go. You are stuck with me. P.S. Almost 2 years <3

Day 68

Today was a goid day. Woke up and talked to my baby. Got some banking stuff figured out. Went to a bookstore and ate at a greasy spoon burger joint called XXX but it was very family friendly. The rootbeer there was so delicious and the burgers were ok. Got home and watched an episode of naruto with baby before he went to bed and then watched fast five, which was absolutly amazing! After that i did some drafting homework until just a couple minutes ago and now imma go to sleep.

Baby i hope you sleep well and have an amazing day. You are the light of my life and I will never ever stop loving. Thank you baby so much for all the smiles. I can't wait to see your smiling face in the morning. I love you with all my heart. Sleep well my love.

Day 67

Been a long day, worked on my drafting final and it was mostly done now, i got some more to do tomorrow but thats totally normal. Watched a couple of shows on netflix and my baby spoiled me with an episode of pokemon. Yup, good day. Nothing else to really write because i didn't do anything else. So yeah, thats all for now. Write more tomorrow.

Day 66

Much better day today. Didn't get any of the homework done i wanted to so im bummed about that but oh well that just means more to do tomorrow.  Im tired and going to head to bed after i get some orange juice. I loves my baby with all my heart! Talk to you again tomorrow baby sleep well and have a great day! Kisses!!!!

Day 65

I can't do this right now, i feel too week and worn out. Of course I will do it, and I will make it through and i will have my breakdown and then build myself back up, its just so hard right now. Ive been crying non-stop for the past half hour. I am so tired of this distance, i want it to go away right now and I want to have my love in my arms where i can feel him and just hold him! God Damnit, I hate nights like these, nights where i just feel worthless and like there is nothing i can do right in the whole entire world and i am just a pain in everyones neck and i should just dissapear. I dont want to be here right now! I want to be with him, where i dont feel so alone all the time, where i can laugh with him and watch him fall asleep, rub his back and sing a soft tune until he was in dreamy bye land. I want to wake up and have him kiss me good morning, and I dont want to be alone! But i have to be patient and I have to wait just a little bit longer and then all the waiting will have been completely worth it. Right now i just need to have a day where I feel like crap because there is nothing i can do and I am in control of nothing. I hate school, I can't find a job, and im so broke i can't even buy my love a birthday present to make up for the fact that I wont be there! I wont be there when he turns 23, and i wont be there for our two year anniversary and I wont be there for christmas or new years. I will be here and all i can do is smile when we webcam even though it kills me to see him and not be able to touch him. I have to suck it up and deal because this is what we have to deal with right now. I love you baby with all of my heart and I can't wait until I can hold you in my arms once again. I know there will always be nights like these when we are apart, and i promise i can do this. I can stay strong. Just let me break once in a while and build myself back up. We can do this together. I love you so very much. Have an amazing day and I really hope to talk to you in the morning when im not so emotional.

Day 64

Nothing new except more cold sores. Tired and in bed for the night with nothing to say. Will write tomorrow. Love you baby. Have a great day at work. I.will talk to you tomorrow.

Day 63

Stayed home from school. Homework half completed will finish the rest tomorrow. Had a seven hour long convo with my baby, yeah it was a good day minus the coldsores and sick part. Im tired though so im going to bed. I love you baby, have an amazing day and get yourself some good rest. Take care and i will talk to you in the morning.

Day 62

Been a long day, im definatly coming down with something. Going to stay home from school tomorrow because I wanna kick it in the but before it even has a chance to start, especially with finals coming up so soon. I do have to say I had a wondfully long conversation with the love of my life today. It was epically awsome and we watched some bleach and naruto together. Made me uber happy. I think he was called in for work or something though because he hasn't messaged me in a while. But oh well, thats what happens when your a busy working man. I love him so very much and I am so happy to have him in my life as well as his love. Its just been an uber good day, and I got my car back on top of it! now if i only wasn't sick. I loves you baby and I hope you have a really great day today. Take care of yourself, I love you! and I will talk to you when you get a chance.

Day 61

Not much to report today, woke up with a cold sore and im pissed about that. Got some homework done and talked to my baby. A very productive and happy day overall. Thats all im gonna really say, I have a pain in my neck that is going to turn into a migrain if i dont lay down soon, so baby! I love you! Im so proud of you! And I really hope im able to talk to you tomorrow love. Have an amazing day at work and I shall see you when i see you. Loves you to the moon and back!

Day 60

Its been 60 days, and I have lost count of the weeks, months, other vairous ways to count time, but I know that it has been 60 days and babe we are as strong as ever. I love that I get to see your amazingly handsom, sweet face everyday and sometimes Im lucky enough to wake up to you and fall asleep to you. I know you are very busy and have alot going on but I really appreciate the fact that you take the time out to give me some special time. It makes me feel like a trillion bucks. And your goal for tomorrow is to get me to episode 200 of Bleach, so I should probably really get some shut eye so that I dont fall asleep while I watch it. lol.  I love you baby, and I hope you have a non-stressful day and get everything done you need to and that you get to chill out and have some much deserved you time. You are a truly amazing man and I am so thankful to have your love and you in my life. So, baby, have a great day, maybe get a nap in there, and I will see you in the morning love. Time to hold you in my dreams!

Day 59

This is my 101st post on this blog. Wow how time flys and over half of those were just my everyday count up posts. Its been 59 days since I last saw my love but really we are closer than ever. Thank god for technology! I get to see his handsom face everysingle day and it makes me truly happy to not only see his face but to also hear his voice!

I have not posted pics because half of them have been of friends and such that I do not have permission to post on here. I don't know if im going to keep up with the photos on the blog because I have them all on facebook in a seperate album. Anyways, so yeah, no more pics for a while.

I love you baby! You are the most amazing, unique, wonderful man in the entire world and everyday you make me proud to call you mine. I am so incredibly proud of all the progress you are making in your everday life, even the small things like going to the gym or getting your homework done before video games. You are mine, always and forever. My heart and joy, my one and only. My soul is yours love, so sleep in peace knowing I am here and will never leave.

Day 58

Baby! I love you soooooo much! And I cannot believe that you are finally hooked on Naruto. Payback for getting me hooked on bleach. This is what I posted on my facebook today:

 

I am so happy with the way my life is right now. Yes, i hate school, and yes my ♥ is far too far away. But Im going for a bachelors in a program that really excites me, and baby and I wont be seperated forever. The point is im working towards a better future not only for me but for our future together. We make plans together and we are both working towards a brighter and better tomorrow. Baby, its... hard right now being so far away, but we have made it through much worse. We have each other and we have love, compassion, and respect for one another. All of these are important and all show just how much we are determined to make this work. Justin, I ♥ you with all my heart and that will never change.

This is truly how I am feeling right now. And  baby I am so, so proud of you for everything you have acomplished and that you are working towards. You truly make me the happiest woman on the planet earth and I cannot help but being all cheasy and saying mushy gushy stuff. I love you and I am so happy we are growing together and everyday falling more in love and bonding as a couple. The next few years are going to be really tough, with alot of changes and difficulties heading our way but I truly belive that we will make it through and that every trial will bring us closer and closer together. You are my one, my only, my forever.

Day 57

Currently webcamming with my baby who is very sleepy. He is so adorable! My back is killing me so im heating it, i was bent over for my drafting assignment measuring and drawing the damn little tiny lines. But i was very productive today which was a good thing.

I loves you baby with all of my heart and you are so adorable and amazing and I really cannot image you not being in my life. Thank you for all the laughs and all the love. Every day is special and I will hold every moment we are together in my heart. Love you! Have a great day!

Day 56

Not much to say today, Had an awsome chat with my baby love and caught up with my bestest firend via webcam. Today was a good day all things considered, even school wasn't horribly bad. The teacher who I dont like his teaching I asked how my grade was and he said an A ish so im happy enough. Found a way to put sticky notes on my desktop so I have alot of sticky notes reminding me to do things now.

I loves you baby with all my heart and what you told me today really lifted me up inside and made me feel like a trillion bucks! You have no idea how even the simplest little statement can lift me up and make me float on clouds. You are all I will ever want, and all I need. You have me heart and soul forever and a day. All of eternity. I am never going to stop loving you, and I will always be here for you no matter what. When the road gets rough and rocky we just have to cling a little tighter to make it through again to the good times. Sleep tight and have an amazing day my knight in shining armor. I will meet you in my dreams and talk to you whenever possible. <3

Day 55

Its been several days since I did photos again. Sorry, Ive been keeping up on facebook. Not much going on. I got to see my uncle from Hawaii yesterday and meet his girlfriend and I spent the day with my mommy. Other than that I have just been watching bleach with justin everyday. We have had two serious converstations and one really good long one today after bleach. I also got a couple of bridal planning books and stuff so im a verry happy girl. Got my powerpoint done today, still need to do the vocabulary somehow, but dont want to. I have so many to catch up on, and I have quite a bit of drafting to catch up on also. I really hate schoolwork. And I talked to someone at the school and they really weren't all that helpfull. I also have to figure out how to do the stupid online math course. UGH! You would think for a private school they would have their stuff put together much better. But no!

Anyways, pics are below.

My pics, now im gonna watch bleach with my baby this morning. I <3 you babe! you rock and im so glad you woke up in a great mood. Love you have a great day!

Day 54

New army wives. Visited with mommy and uncle today as well as bleach marathon and figuring out plans. Yup today was a good day. Really tired now.

Love you babe and so happy we figured things out again. Lol. You make me so happy. Have an amazing day love.