Day 205

So I did something a little bit crazy today, I made several new blogs... four in total. I am not really sure why I did this, I don't like posting on this one more than once a day because then it would mess up my count and I guess sometimes I just want to write about stuff not for the daily post so I made a blog for each of my interests. There were several other ones I wanted to make too but I was able to reign myself in thankfully. So now I have to try to keep up with six different blogs... good lordie what did I get myself into? lol.

I have been feeling very nauseous and super tired all day. Guess I really have come down with the flue. Nothing tastes right which I think really sucks. The blog has a new layout though, what do you all think? Like? Dislike? All my blogs match each other now. Makes me happy. I think it's the Virgo in me, I have to have it all organized and done a certain way, which is why I have so many different blogs so I can keep all the categories separated. Just a random thought I had on my mind, it seems like no matter where I go I can't get away from the military. Its in songs and adds and television shows and some days I just want to forget all about it. The only thing I want to associate myself with is to see my love, try to forget the situation we are in for just a brief period of time and pretend that I will see him again tomorrow. Of course I know this is an impossibility but sometimes I just feel so depressed.

Anyways love, no matter how depressed or lonely I am I know that I always have you and I love you very much forever and ever. I can't wait to see you and hear your voice, but most of all I can't wait to hold you and feel your warmth. You are my everything and when we are apart my world is incomplete. I miss you baby. I love you. Stay safe and have a good day.

Day 204

I feel sick, and I just want to be held. Why is this distance so hard?

I miss you baby, so very much. Sending my love your way, always and forever.

Day 203

Skyping with my love, gotta love technology.

Love you baby, hugs and kisses.

Day 202

So I actually did stuff today. Lets see, it started out with waking up and messaging my baby, and then my mother-in-law messaged me and we finally got the corset business figured out so that is ordered and on the way (my first real corset, can't wait!) and then I Skyped with my love for several hours and a friend messaged me asking me to go shopping with her and I love shopping so I said yes. She picked me up and we went to one mall then we were going to go to another but we ended up driving around this beautiful little town and looking at all the gorgeous houses. Needless to say I had an amazing day. When I got home I watched a little bit of Celtic Thunder with my mommy and now I am all snuggled up in bed ready for sleep.

Baby, I hope you got plenty of sleep and are well rested for the busy day ahead of you. I love you tons and I hope to talk to you at some point today but If I can't I do understand. I miss you tons, will be dreaming of your warm loving arms tonight. XOXO

Day 201

What can I say? I just really miss my baby. I have had several break down days and I am ready for them to go away now.

Baby, lets talk about the happy times in the past and the happy times ahead. I love you forever and always.

Day 200

It has been two hundred days since he left. I miss him so much, i just really want to give him a great big hug.

I love you baby, can't wait to see you in the morning. I miss you.

Day 199

Tonight was hard. Watching him get ready for work was painful, I wanted to hold him tight and see him off, but all I had was his image on my computer screen. It set me off, tears falling every which way, everything I have been holding in came flooding out, painfully. I cried to my mom like a child, as she held me and helped me as best as she could. I just want to be with my husband. That's all. Even if I just had one day to hold him, that would help me make it through the next couple of months without him. I miss him so much.

My dear love, I miss you so much, I wish so much I could wake up to you each and every morning, roll over and kiss your lips and see you off to work. I wish I could be there when you got home, to cuddle up to you while you played your xbox. I just want to feel your warmth. I just want to be in your presence. I just want to be with you. I love you so much.

Day 198

I got a ton done today, but now i feel really sick because i ate too much at dinner. Ugh i wanna throw it all up. I know that is horribly nasty but its how i feel.

Baby please get on soon so i can talk to you and then pass out while i writhe in pain. I love you uber muchness. Hugs and Kisses.

Day 197

Baby was so cute today, he was so tired from this weekend that he was sitting in his chair and we were talking and he was like "I'm just gonna go to bed." and then he literally fell asleep in his chair. Like before I could even snap my fingers he was out of it. It was so cute!!!!!! And he would be so mad if he saw this, but i'm pretty sure he doesn't read my blog so im probably safe.

Baby I miss you like crazy. Moments like today make me so thankful for the technology we have, but it hurts to see your amazing face, hear your sweet voice, and not be able to hold you. I would take that pain over the other any day though. The alternative is not seeing or hearing from you at all, and we have done that and it was ten times worse. I love you so much, have an amazing day. Hugs and Kisses from me to you.

Day 196

Ah, it doesn't get much better than sitting in my comfy bed and watching my baby play his video games, of course it would be ten times better if he was actually here, but all things considered this is the best it gets over webcam and distance.

Aw, baby, how I miss you. I love listening to you play video games because you get so intense and you are uber funny! I can't wait for the talky time that is sure to come later. I love you so so much. Have a great, amazing day at work!

Day 195

If web-caming until we fall asleep is the closest I can get to sleeping with my husband, by darn I will take it. Lucky me that's what we are doing right now, falling asleep on each other. So of course you will understand if I keep this short.

Baby I LOVE YOU! That is all. Sleep well XOXO

Day 194

Ah, its been such a good day, I am currently on webcam with my love and he has friends over and they are all arguing about something or other and it is really quite entertaining. I am tempted to make myself a drink and join in but then I think nah! Let them have their fun. Its so entertaining.

Baby I loves you! Sorry I keep interrupting your friend time, but If i don't talk to you when you have people over then I would never talk to you cuss you would call me and fall asleep within five minutes! lol, I miss you like crazy. Love you babe.

Day 193

I am keeping this real short as i am going to bed on webcam with my love.

Baby, i love you so much. Sorry for all the arguments past, present and future. You are all to me and I love you for all eternity.

Day 192

Had a really great day today, got to talk to my baby lots and I got to see my brother! Which is awesome because I never get to see him anymore. Him and the hubby argued over cars over the webcam which was quite entertaining although I think they mostly scolded me. lol. I have once again got into role-playing and I am working on a new one hoping that it will be super active and work well.

Baby! So happy you like to spoil me because I love watching you play video games, you make the funniest faces and say the funniest things. I love you so, so much and I cannot wait to be in your arms once again. Have a great day my love.

Day 191

So today was really really good. I got to talk to my baby a lot! There was some minor drama between me and two friends and I don't really think its resolved but there isn't much I can do about it. We will just have to wait and see how that one turns out. I decided to look at baby clothes because I have tons of friends either with little ones or who have little ones on the way and I found this really cool website http://www.punkbabyclothes.net/index.html it has all types of alternative baby clothes which I love and I know a lot of my friends will love too. No I am not pregnant, nor do I plan on becoming pregnant any time soon. I just like looking at the cute shoes and onesies.

Baby I am so happy i got to talk to you today and that I was able to help you out. That always makes me feel so good knowing I can help you from half the world away. I love you so, so much. Get lots of sleep tonight and have a great day at work and I will talk to you after you have rested up. XOXO