Day 236

Today has been a really good day, I got my naval and nose pierced and have been webcaming with my love for the better part of the evening. I just switched over to the new blogger layout and I have to say blogger, I am not happy with it. It is weird and hard to understand and so bland. I liked the old layout and way of doing things much better. I know your suppose to give change a chance and whatnot but I submitted several reviews of it when it was still in beta and it still looks exactly the same as it did before. Boring to look at and complicated to navigate. Oh well, I guess I will just have to get use to it right?

Baby, I love you much and I am so glad I do not vent about this little stuff to you because I can already see what you are going to say. I am glad you like my piercings so much, I love them so I am glad you approve although it really isn't necessary that you do its just a plus for me. Anyways, I hope you have a great weekend, love you babe.

Day 235

Well, this has been quite an interesting week and a lot of stuff has happened so I think its best just to list the events and write out what happened during each one that way I don't get completely lost.

• Monday - My best friend came over to hang out with me and we talked a ton and I can't remember if we did anything else, I believe we went over to a friends house to help them move.
• Tuesday - Hung out with another best friend and went over to mutual friends new place to hang out.
• Wednesday - Hung out at mutual friends new place late at night, ate dollar store spaghetti and watched Howls moving castle.
• Thursday - Babysat and hung out with friend. Had fun doing our makeup.
• Friday - Babysat and best friend went home.

Yeah that's it for my week. It may not sound like a lot but it sure felt like it when it was all going on. Everyone wanted to hang out with me and see me and it was like AH!!!!!!

Baby, I miss you and love you so much and if I am stressing over the little paperwork I have I can only imagine what you have been going through. I love you to pieces and hope you have a great weekend. Hugs and kisses baby.

Day 234

Today was a much better day, although stressful in many ways. I am so tired of paperwork and stupid people! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways, like I said much better day but I have a lot to do tomorrow so I have to be getting to bed.

I love you baby so very much and I can't wait until I get to see your gorgeous face next. XOXO

Day 233

Day started out good... i don't know what happened. I don't feel like blogging. Stupid daily blog.

Have a good day baby I love you.

Day 232

Good day, hanging out with my friends who are more family than anything. love them lots! Been all over the place today and I am so hungry all of a sudden o.0 random. Anyways, yeah I'm gonna continue hanging out with my siblings.

I miss you husband and love you very much, I wish you were here to join me. I will be holding you tonight in my dreams.

Day 231

Today has been a great day, my bff taz is here and we are hanging out and having lots of fun she is on spring break for a week so this is my first time seeing her in quite a while. We have been talking for hours! I sent out the hubbies wedding ring today so hopefully he gets it soon. I am so spacing on what else happened today, its late and im brain dead in taz's words.

Love you baby, have a great day at work I will talk to you in the am. XOXO

Day 230

NO! We have hit the 23 triple digits! I had hoped I would have been over there by now but everything is so slow. Like the postal service. I am waiting for my final bit of paperwork that I need to fill out and such so I can send it back to him so we can submit and wait for approval. It has been a crazy long day. I got a couple of new books that look really good and my cousin started a blog which is pretty cool actually. Check it out here! It's all about what she has been through, disability rights and equality stuff. I am very proud of her because she is an amazing person and I love her to death. So yeah, go check out her blog. I also visited my aunt and grandmother today and tomorrow a good friend of mine is coming over and it will be good to visit with her and catch up. It will defiantly help keep my mind off of my loneliness. The past month has just been terrible because I miss my husband so much and its like this gnawing feeling inside of me and I just want it to be over. I know we are so close now, but it still feels so far away! You have probably gathered that though if you are an avid reader of my said blog here. Speaking of which, if you are, leave a comment or hit the follow button. I would very much appreciate it. Yes this blog is for my own personal thought vomit but I like to hear from people and get a feel for who reads about this sort of stuff. Of course my other blogs I started sort of fell by the wayside, I will work on fixing that though because I really do want to avidly keep up with each and everyone of them but since I don't do much stuff different everyday there isn't really all that much to talk about like I thought there would be.

Baby, I loves you uber much as you already know because I say it and I hope I show it just as much so you feel the love pouring from me. I miss you so much, I am tired of curling up by myself at night and I know you are too. Its hard but we can make it. Just a couple more months babe. We are strong. We have each other, and lets face it, we have been through worse. Hugs and kisses for you my love, lots and lots of hugs and kisses and I will talk to you soon. I hope you have an amazing day at work and sleep lots tonight. XOXO

Day 229

Its been a LONG day, and I am very ready for bed. I miss my husband very much and I am quite cranky lately. Depression is setting in. The days feel like years. Like this morning felt like forever ago. Not ok. Time needs to pass quickly.

I miss you baby and I love you very much. I hope you have a great day tomorrow and that you sleep well tonight.

Day 228

Dyed my hair tonight and it turned out more red than I would have liked. I miss my husband and my head is just pounding from allergies so I am keeping this uber short tonight.

I love you baby so very very much and I can't wait to see what you think of my hair!

Day 227

Ok, seriously, its been far too long since I have seen my husband and felt his warmth. Webcam is getting old but what can I do? It's all I have, and it keeps me going. I have no birth control in my system so I am an emotional wreck. Everything anyone says I take personally, I have no sense of humor and I cry at the drop of a pin. I am seriously going crazy. I just want to be with my husband. Mail, hurry up and get here so I can do what I have to and send the form back to him. I am so tired of this, I miss him so much it hurts. And if I am like this I can only imagine how he is feeling. This distance thing really sucks. I think I need to watch sappy movies just to cry until I can't cry anymore but I am already so tired of crying. I am so tired of being alone, I am so tired, and drained, physically and emotionally and mentally and its all so much and I thought I would have seen him by now I need his hugs and kisses and cuddles. I need my husband. Right now I feel like a child, but its true. I need him so much, it hurts so much, i love him so much I just want to be with him.

Baby, always and forever, i love you.

Day 226

Today has been good, minus the allergies kicking in. I went for a run this morning... I think it was this morning, this morning feels like forever ago. And yeah, baby sent out paperwork for me today, whoo! Should have it around this time next week. Can't wait. So close!

I love you baby and I miss you tons and I cannot wait to see you in the flesh again. XOXOXO Have a great day!

Day 225

My hormones have been going haywire today, I do not like it at all. One minute I am pissed the next I want to cry and then to top it off I am incredibly frustrated at the drop of a dime. Today has just really sucked, I just want to curl up next to my husband and cry for an hour straight. Ugh! Maybe I will have to go back on birth control sooner than I wanted to.

Baby, I really miss you right now, like a lot a lot, and I just really want you to hold me. The next couple of months can't pass soon enough. I miss you like crazy. I love you baby!

Day 224

It has been a great day, and I have an amazing husband. I just want to throw that out there because I am feeling especially lovey tonight.

I miss you baby, so much and all I want to do is curl up in your arms. I know that soon I will be able to so I hope each day passes quickly until I can be in your arms once again.

Day 223

Yesterday feels like forever ago, although I did have a lot of fun today. I was spoiled and got to talk to my love for an uber long time. I just love him so very much. I did randomly burst into tears, but thats just because of haywire emotions. Now that I am off the birth control who knows how often that will happen.

I love you baby! I miss you lots, and I could really go for a heavy dose of the  cuddles right now. I am making a cuddle board on pinterest thats how bad I want some. XOXO I hope you have an amazing day and I will be cuddling with you all night long in my dreams.

Day 222

It's St. Paddy's Day! And I did my nails and makeup for the occasion. I am so green! lol. And I got to talk to my love and he was drunk and really funny and I really wish I could have been there with him. Holidays really suck without him, even a small one like today. But I am going out to hang out with some of our really good friends. So that will be fun.

I love you baby! I miss you! and as soon as I am there you are never getting rid of me for any holiday! lol. XOXO sleep well <3

Day 221

Ok, so I am a little late on this post, but I was having the most amazing conversation with my hubby so you will have to forgive me. With that being said it is very late and I am tired and going to bed. Today was an AMAZING day.

I miss you love, so so much. I cannot wait to be in your arms once again, you are my everything. <3

Day 220

Today has been really good! I did nail stuff and found the recipes I want to make for the party I am going to on Saturday. Talked to my hubby for a couple of hours which made me a very happy wifey. Lol, speaking of wifey thats what his friends call me they say "Hi wifey" or "Hi wifey person" it is quite comical, but good to know he calls me wife when I am not around. The only down side is I have had a killer headache all day long and I really hope it goes away soon.

BABY! I hope you enjoy your nice long weekend and have a good time on St. Paddys Day. I wish I could be there with you to go all out and celebrate and be your designated driver so you could get hammered if you wish, but don't worry I will totally make up for it next year. I cannot believe it has two hundred and twenty days since you left, it feels like years have passed, but we will be together again soon. I love you so much!

Day 219

So I guess today was Pi Day its 3.14.12 and 3.14 is the square root of pie, anyways its a big deal or something, I don't really know but I just wanted to say that I did celebrate by eating a piece of pie. Now onto more important things, I woke up in the best way ever this morning, my hubby called me and woke me up. I cannot tell you how happy that made me, really. Then I spent a couple of hours online doing random stuff, then I talked to my hubby again before he went to bed and he said I post way too much on the internet. I guess in a way I do but I try not to post anything too personal, and more just random useless stuff that no one cares about anyways. Or at least that's the goal, I think I do a good job of it too. After my hubby said goodnight I went over to a friends and we went out and spent the day window shopping and it was tons of fun. It was really good to socialize and get out of the house, and though I am not too keen to do it again any time soon, I will be spending Saturday evening at the same friends house celebrating St. Patrick Day, I am going to paint my nails green tomorrow in preparation.

Baby I am so exhausted, I miss you lots and really wish I could curl up beside you right now in your warm loving arms. I hope you have a good work day, miss you XOXO

Day 218

It has been a very long day, I went to the doctors and had my Birth Control removed, finally. It majorly effected my body in a bad way (period for four months straight) and I am glad to say that it is gone and out of my system. Hopefully now my body can go back to being normal. I was not able to talk to my hubby on cam before work this morning, it was just "one of those days" where I am pretty sure he was running late or something. Its days like these I really wish I could be there and give him long kisses when he wakes up, start his shower, make him a cup of coffee, have a small breakfast ready for him so all he has to do is get up, shower, kiss me and walk out the door. I really cannot wait until I am with him just so I can do the small things like that. Mornings like these are also what makes the distance harder, because I can't be there for him doing what I want to be doing and should be doing as his wife. It is tough and I know we have already made it though so much and we are so close now, I just wish we were there and could move forward together.

I love you baby, I hope you have a great day, and that work goes smoothly and that you have a fun day after work, maybe some drinks with the guys, or a good workout at the gym, whatever will put a smile on your face. I really do love you so much and I miss you so bad. Hang in there, we are so close baby, so close. XOXO

Day 217

So I woke up to this horrible knot like feeling in my throat, what a great way to start out the day right? and proceeded to do nothing for several hours. Then I called and talked to my husband briefly, and showered then went out to do some errands. When I got back my tricare packet info was in the mail so I looked it over, but I really don't understand it at all, and then I ate dinner, watched some eureka with my mom and now I am blogging while I wait for Justin to get online, if he ever does get online that is. I may just hit the sack early because I am super tired. I have a long day tomorrow, getting my birth control removed from my arm. It is going to be very painful and I am not really looking forward to the procedure.

Baby! Get up! TALK TO ME! lol, yeah right like that ever works huh? Your probably out and about doing your morning stuff, I really don't know but I hope you are able to get online soon. I miss you lots and I love you very uber much and I really wish you were here to curl up with me and comfort me because I am really freaked out about tomorrow. I know that your head will be with me though, as well as your heart. I love you so much baby, we are so close now. XOXO Have a good day.

Day 216

I am going to keep it short, but I just wanted to say I LOVE MY HUSBAND!

I LOVE YOU BABY! See its super short post tonight. XOXOXO Have a good day at work.

Day 215

So something bit by baby or something cuss he was a total grump today! All snappy at me and stuff, made me cry (I am overly sensitive) and then a couple hours later he called me and apologized for being such a dick. Made me feel a lot better that he acknowledged his mistake and my feelings. Then we just sat on the webcam for several hours not talking. He was getting really angry at his vids though.

Love you baby, I hope you get plenty of rest and have a much better day tomorrow. Sweet dreams.

Day 214

So today was a pretty good day, I got all my bank stuff I needed taken care of, ate tons of junk food, and hung out with a good friend. Overall not a bad day. The only down side is that I didn't really get to talk to my hubby all that much which saddens me. But tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I will get to talk to him then.

Baby, I don't care if you are busy if you are online when I wake up tomorrow I am calling you. Why? because its the weekend and if I don't talk to you when I can I wont get to because you have crazy fun weekends. Lol, I love you baby, very very much and I miss you tons. Tons tons tons. I really wish I could cuddle up in your warm arms right now, that would make everything so much better.

Day 213

I am uber tired so we are gonna keep this short. got shoes, went for run, body hurts.

Love you  baby, please call soon so I can sleep. XOXO Have a good day.

Day 212

So today was good, my hubby wanted some man time this morning so I went out and got stuff taken care of instead of webcaming with him. That was kind of weird actually, I really didn't get a lot of other important stuff taken care of but I did watch a really interesting video on facebook that a friend sent me. Its below if you want to give it a look. It really makes you think. I had no idea about any of this, it really goes to show how absorbed everyone gets in their own lives and how little attention many of us pay to countries outside of our own.

Baby, I really hope you are not falling asleep right now because I don't want you to be late for work and I have no idea how I would wake you up at this point and I think you just fell asleep. Please say you set an alarm. I love you much much and I hope you have a great day! I am going to try and wake you up now. XOXOXO

Day 211

So I did end up talking to the hubby last night and it was great! And then I talked to him again this morning while he played his new Mass Effect 3 game and we talked and figured out what type of dog we want to get first. We haven't really figured out the when yet. Then I went to a friends house and visited with her, it was really great catching up, and then ran by the bank and came home and worked out for an hour-ish. That felt really good, but my back is kinda hurting me now. And can I just say belly dancing is hard? It is, my stomach hurts and I think I am bloated so I am none too thrilled. I did eat basically three whole meals today (kinda) Which is more than I have eaten in a really long time and also I can't remember what else I was going to say.

Baby! I hopes I talks to you tonight too I loves you mucho much and I really really want to curl up and fall asleep in your arms next to your warmth. I miss you so much.

Day 210

So today was a little disappointing. I was unable to get my awesome new running shoes because they sold out so now I have to wait until wednesday, I only pawned my hard drive for the Xbox my husband sent me for twenty dollars, and I didn't start any of my fitness stuff. On the plus side I did see some friends who are going through a rough time, and there kids and that was nice. Um, talked to my husband for a really long time this morning and that made me happy and I don't think I will be talking to him before work because he is busy this morning which is kinda sad because I usually talk to him every morning. Hm, not much else to write, it was overall a bland sort a day with little hints of excitement here and there. Can I just say I cannot wait until I am in my husbands arms? I miss him so god damn much.

Baby I love you and I miss you and I am sending you tons of mental loving right now. I hope that you have a good day at work. XOXOXO

Day 209

It has been a very good day. I talked to my love for several hours this morning, well not really talked but we webcamed and me made me laugh so hard, it felt good getting back to semi normal. And then I helped my mom reorganize her cupboards and clean and then we spent the evening watching my boys. It was a very relaxing, fun day. I feel like doing sit ups or something right now. Getting my shoes in the morning and I cannot wait!

Baby! I loves you! Thank you for the shoes! I have never been this excited over a pair of tennis shoes, ever. But I am super happy and I loves you! I already said that didn't I. Hm, Well I hope you have a good day, I will talk to you soon.

Day 208

So this morning I rolled over and tried to call my hubby on Skype, he didn't answer so I waited a half hour and then tried calling again, he still didn't answer so I wait an hour and then send him a message and he calls me. Turns out he was lying down in bed because he is still feeling very under the weather. I felt so bad! But he talked to me for a little bit then went to lay back down and I think slept through the night. I was finally able to find helpful salespeople and a pair of running shoes that I actually love. I told the hubby when I called tonight, his morning, and he told me to go ahead and buy them and not to push myself as I am training myself to run. The shoe store actually had me try them on and then go running in them, it was odd, I have never had a store do that before. Anyways, I am going to call them tomorrow and see if they are open so I can go pick up the shoes. I am really very excited. And then me and mom watched an episode of Supernatural when we got home, had dinner, and then watched several hours of My boys on Netflix. One of our favorite shows. And now I am talking to my hunny.

Baby! Thank you so much for buying me an amazing pair of shoes. I know that I am making the purchase but its your cash and I consider it a gift from you and I am very thankful. I have not had a really good pair of shoes in probably my whole life. So thank you. I love you oh so very much, I seriously can't wait to start training just so I will be able to run with you when I get to Germany. I am very excited about this. Hugs and Kisses!

Day 207

It has been an excruciatingly long day. I am ready for it to be over so I can wake up and talk to my love. Not much to write, still not feeling well. Hope I get better soon.

Love you baby, hope to hear from you soon.

Day 206

So today I had an episode of word vomit. You know when your talking and your brain is telling you to shut up but words just keep spilling out of your mouth until you have completely pissed off everyone around you? Yeah, well that happened to me today, several times. I just don't have any luck this year. The only real good thing that has happened is I was able to marry the man I love with all my heart. Most everything else has been crap. Like today I went into Big 5 because my husband told me they would be able to tell me what sort of arch I had and what sort of shoes I needed for running. Well the woman was a complete bitch, totally unhelpful. I went in and said I needed help finding a pair of running shoes because I didn't know what I needed and she responded with What type do you need? Really woman? because i didn't just say I was completely clueless to what I needed. From there it just went downhill and when I told her I needed to know what sort of arch my foot was so my husband would be able to order me shoes if he wanted she was like That's not how it works. Um, thanks you are so incredibly helpful. But I tried on the shoes she suggested, waited five minutes and no one came to check on me to see how I was doing. They were not comfortable and I had no idea why or what else I needed to look for. The lady just really pissed me off. So now I need to go in somewhere else and try to get some help so I can get a good pair of shoes and start training myself so I will be able to run with my husband. I can't even make it 1/4 of a mile and he can run 5. I need to get started asap. I wanted to cry when I left big 5. I don't think i have ever had such poor service. And then my dinner from A&W was horrid, burnt and gross and made my stomach turn every which way. It was just not a good day. Lucky me I was able to talk to my husband and although he was still a little ticked at me from my word vomit earlier he was able to move past it and make me laugh before he headed out for work.

Baby, I love you so much. Thank you for all of your patience, I need a lot and this is a new experience for the both of us. We knew it wouldn't be easy but if we handle everything the way we have been we will be just fine. I am truly sorry for my words that upset you, but please lets not bicker anymore until I am able to be there in person. I just want some happy non stressful days. I am so tired. I know you are too. So lets do our best to make it all work out like we have been doing. You truly are an amazing man and I am very much in love with you. Hugs and kisses baby, have a great day and I will talk to you after work. XOXO