Day 114

Not much to post after my epic rant last night so im just gonna say long day, love my baby, and finally got around to repainting my nails. Now for a couple episodes of gargoyles before I hit the sack. Baby, this is definatly a show you and me are going to be watching together curled up eating junk food. I enjoy those moments most and there is no one i would rather do that with than with you. Have a good day and sleep tight.

Day 113

Omg, so people seriously piss me off. I bought a gate to put on the door in my room so my sisters old cat can't get in because she is old and dying and likes to pee on everything including my $50 boots. And I posted this information (I did not say she was an old cat because I was pretty sure saying she peed everywhere implyed this) and some chick was like "I hate to tell you this but cats can jump". No shit! Its not like I havn't lived with cats my entire life and didn't go out and buy and expensive gate just to have the damn cat jump over it. If she could jump over it why the hell would I bother to buy a fucking gate in the first place? Im not an idiot! I do have a brain, and it does function. Fucking people. Im sorry she might have meant well, but really a comment like that is just bitchy all the way around. And while im on the subject of stupid shit people post on facebook, if your having issues with people giving you shit about something, dont fucking post it on facebook! If you post a picture of a bleeding hand, expect comments, if you post a picture of a car wreck, expect questions, if you post pics or status updates that let people know what your personal life is like they are going to comment and if they dont like what they see cause drama, so if you going to post it either shut the hell up and dont complain or just dont post it period. Yes its your wall and you can post whatever you want, but at least delete the people giving you a hard time. GEEZ! You would think that some people would learn. But no, drama drama drama. Makes me want to delete my facebook because I have to deal with stupid fucking people all the time. And i totally would if Justin didn't use it to keep up with me and stuff when we can't talk like we do now. Gah, I totally love ranting makes me feel alot better. Wish I could just tell everyone what I thought right away and just list it off, but then id have a ton of people bitching at me. Bottom line is, if your not smart enough to filter what you put on your profile for whoever is on your friendslist or the world to see, dont complain when it bites you in the ass.

Babe, I feel much better after my rant. And now I wont have to rant about this to you later which im sure you will be happy about although I know you totally agree with me. And that is why we get along so well, we have similar opinions about things. Anyways have a good day, hopefully I will feel less bitchy when i wake up and talk to you in the morning.

Day 112

Ugh long annoying day of talking to tons of different people on phones and stuff. Work wasn't my favorite today, maybe im just tired, but my shift tomorrow is a shorter one so I will be able to have a break which is good.

Baby! you totally freaked me out when I saw I had missed a call from you but then we were able to talk and it just turns out you forgot I was working! silly boy. I really do love you, I wish you could cuddle up to me and keep me warm. I needs my heater. Loves you love

Day 111

So today was a very long but good day. I have decided to avoid working sundays if at all possible because they are the devil incarnate and go by way too slowly, my hour lunch felt like three hours of torture. But I got to talk to Justin lots and we were both in really good moods. I was so hyper after work and was talking so fast im suprised he was able to understand me. I also have my schedual for next week all put together, working 39 hours. YAY! Long shifts but its all for the monies! Which is very important.

Baby! I really do love everything about you, even the parts I dont like so much I still love, I mean personality wise, your physically attractive to me in every way possible and when I see you.... oh yeah. But anyways, thank you for the good laughs tonight, I needed them. I hope you have a great day and work and I will talk to you in the morning!

Day 110

Such a good, long day today. Woke up to a strang drunken message from my baby which was nice and made me smile like an idiot, and then we video chatted for like five hours, even though I probably spent three of those sleeping and another one and a half was spent with both of us watching our own anime/cartoons. He was watching cowboy beebop and I was watching Gargoyles. But we did have a really good chat with each other, got some important things discussed and found his rings we want to buy, now all he has to do is pick out a watch. That boy is just as bad as me, I swear. Between the two of us our closets are going to be overflowing, there will be three jewlery boxes, and we will constantly be having to budget for our expenses! lol, no it probably wont be that bad at all. We are really good about compromising on things. Do men have jewlery boxes? I wanted to get Justin a nice box to put his rings and stuff in when he isn't able to wear them for work and stuff. That will of course have to wait for a while since im trying to budget three major expenses at once but its something to keep in mind as a present. So after I talked to Justin I went to work and that went really well, I met this new chick that was really nice and I liked talking to her even though she reminded me eerily of someone I know and dislike greatly. That was confusing. And then one customer cried on me because she has had a lot go on in her life and I just gave her a big hug, I wished I could have done more for her. Then I closed, got my paycheck and came home. Got on facebook with my head spinning like crazy for 15 minutes. Did my photo of the day and now im writing my blog and thats my day in a nutshell. At least my back and feet dont hurt nearly as bad as they did the first couple of days, I think im getting use to this whole work thing.

Baby, i really wish I could be with you right now and be your nurse to help you get better, I hate that your sick and I can't do anything for you. This first paycheck wasn't alot so im going to buy a couple things I need and the rest of the paychecks after this go straight to the savings. I hope your feeling much better soon and get lots of your schoolwork done. I really do love you with all my heart babe and I can't wait until I can hold you in my arms again, curl up real close to you and listen to your heart beat. I hope when you wake up you feel much better so get a good restful nights sleep and I will talk to you in the morning baby. love love

Day 109

So had a super long day, woke up at 2 which was 2 hours earlier than I planned to but at least I was able to talk to Justin for a bit and that made me happy. Work was long, almost threw up twice, and was nautious all day after that and im tired right now but I can't get to sleep. I uploaded pics onto facebook today and that was fun. Ok, im done typing can't think of anymore to say.

Baby, loves you, hope you feel better and less grumpy when I talk to you next mkay, remember happy thoughts.

Day 108

Going to sleep getting up at 3. The joys of working. Baby i know you don't like the holidays and don't feel good but don't take it out on me i can only handle so much. I love you very much and that wont ever change. I hope i can talk to you before work.

Day 107

I did not work today, but I did watch my baby play video games all day. Now that may sound creppy but its just kinda what we do, we skype even when we aren't necessarily talking, it makes me feel like we are in the same room together and not thousands of miles apart. I dont work tomorrow but i have to make sure I sleep lots because I work black friday... joy. And my room is extreamly creepy tonight, damn looks like no sleep tonight. But i hope my baby sleeps well and feels better, he thinks he might be getting sick.
Baby, you should just admit you bought skyrim for you and not me, even though I don't think you would have bought it if i hadn't said that i wanted to play it... so my bad there. But I love you anyways. I hope you are having lots of fun and that you have a great thanksgiving. I love you baby and I will talk to you as much as possible tomorrow. Feel better loves.

Day 106

Such a long but good day. I didn't work until noon so I got to spend some good quality time with my baby on skype this morning which of course put me in a good mood all morning. I made a small mistake at work, told the manager, and he told me it was alright and now I knew so just not to do it again. So I was glad I didn't get in trouble. I also made past my sales goal for the past two days and signed up two people for macy's cards the past two days. So yay me! Alot of people allready have macy's cards who shop there which is nice because its the easiest to work through on the register. And im finally getting the hang of stuff, I still can't help individual people in the departments because I don't know the merchandise nearly well enough but that just sort of comes with the teritory of being flex. So I think im just going to focus on putting the merchandise back where it goes and ringing people up. Today was also my short day though and I dont work for the next two days so hopefully my feet will get a break and I can start wearing them in again when I go to work 5 am on black friday. Anyways, my baby should be back to his room to talk sometime soon, at least i hope so, I really wanna see him and let him know how im doing with work.

Baby, you are seriously the light of my life right now, whenever I think of how hard work is and how I just wanna quit, I think of you and all the crap you would give me if i did and then i smile and laugh and remind myself that even though it wont be much, we are going to need this money in the future. I really wish I could con you into a foot rub right about now, but thats just not possible so I will settle for some silly antics please, I need my dose of laughter and you are the best medicine I could ever have. Thank you so much for everything you do, you seriously have no idea how much you mean to me and how much all the little things mean. I love you baby, forever and always.

Day 105

Tired, aching feet, so this ones going to be short. Long day at work, working tomorrow in childrens so that should be fun. Hoping to get plenty of sleep tonight, last two nights havn't been good for me sleep wise.
Baby, i love you and im so glad you liked everything i sent you, sorry its such an early christmas present, timing the mailings is so weird. But yeah! glad you like your xbox too. I just really wanna cuddle with you right now, mkay? So c'mere and cuddle with me just as soon as you possibly can and I be a happy Tami.

Day 104

Went through the whole day at work thinking I did really great just to get home, write down my schedual for the week and realize I made a huge uh-oh. Oh well though, not much I can do about it now, whats done is done. Anyways, im so tired, I didn't reallize it was possible for my back to hurt so bad just from standing all day, and the back of my knees, and my ankles, and the bottoms of my feet and lordy. This working thing is more taxing than a fifty pound backpack I had to pack around in school. Speaking of school I withdrew officially, and when I was withdrawing they failed to mention a small fee that I owed to them. So Im p****d because I need to earn double what I was hoping to pay back everything and still help Justin and me out by saving up money. I just hate schools, they screw you over every chance you get. So I don't think I will be attending one ever again at least that is my current frame of mind, we will see after I have had a chance to cool down from feeling screwed over by the last school I attended. My room is freezing cold and I had a NIGHTMARE last night which sucked, I woke up crying and called Justin to calm down because I couldn't figure out if I was awake or asleep. It was truly horrible and left me exausted this morning because I had a hard time falling asleep after that and speaking of sleep I really need to get some since I start work at 9:45 in the morning. Fun stuff, and of course I have to wake up early to talk to my baby a little bit or my day won't be nearly as sunshiny. Oh one more note of good news, I got several work outfits! YAY! now I don't have to wear the same crap everyday. Thank you mommy who I love so much for spending even more money on me. I promise I will pay you back every penny.

Baby, you are a turd, but I love you anyways. Next time you really don't like something I pick out, just say it right away because thinking you like it and then having you bash it before you remember why you kept your mouth shut in the first place about not liking it just makes it hurt more. So remember, communication. And even though I know you still dont like it im going to try and convince you of it anyways. Because I am an obstinat little creature and I know that you will love me anyways and find it more cute/funny than anything else that I think I could possibly sway you of anything. But thats enough, I need sleep and you are at work makings of the mulahs for the foods and stuff. My big strong manly man. I love you and really really wish I could just hold you right now, I was holding the computer while you were on webcam thats how strong my urge was. Yes, i am a sad panda but thats the way the cookie crumbles. Have a great day baby and I will talk to you when I wake up.

on a side side note, I think i have a cardboard cut on the tip of my right pointer finger. 0.0 ouch!

Day 103

Worked my first official shift today at my first official job. Im so proud of me. My back is killing me though i deffinatly need a pair of flats. Baby aren't you proud? And i have still gotten to talk to you lots. I love you love now come here and make my icy room tosty warm please and thank you. Take care and ill talk to you soon.

Day 102

All i want to say for today is i love you baby now and forever.

Day 101

Computers being lame and just erased my paragraph that i don't feel like retyping so baby i hope you get some good and needed rest and that i will be able to talk to you lots after work. Sweet dreams my love.

Day 100

Noo the triple digits allready. I guess its good cuss it means i will see him sooner but its just been so long since i last saw him. I miss my baby a whole bunches and i wants him here right meow to cuddle with after my very long stressful day.

Baby i love the fact u can always brighten up my mood. All i need to do is see that beautiful face or hear one of your outrageous jokes and im feeling much better. Im so happy that you are the person i get to spend the rest of my life with. Thank you for everything.

Day 99

So i got all my paperwork done today and got my register training out of the way, all thats left is orientation tomorrow and then I can start signing up for shifts. Im happy to finally have a real job that I can save up money. Im a little worried about working with the cash registers because i felt ok while going through everything but that was with a step by step guide in front of me, i dont know how I will do with actual customers.

Baby, i loves you! sorry we didn't get to talk a whole lot today but you have me for as long as you want tonight, I am all yours (your tonight that is) and we can chat or whatever. I love you so much and im so very proud of you. Sleep well and take care love.

Day 98

I got the job!!! Im excited to start my first real job and start making money to put in the savings for baby and me. I don't know if he is really happy about it because i wont be able to talk to him as much. Baby i promise i will talk to you as much as possible even if im up late or have to wake up early because talking to you, hearing your loving voice and seeing your smiling face is what will get me through the long full days. I love you baby! Sleep well and as always have an amazing day at work.

Day 97

Took tired long day tomorrow with my interview and had fun with facebook tonight.

Love's you baby don't be so grr at me next time i help with schoolwork. Have a great day love.

Day 96

Royally pissed off right now at dumb people who say dumb shit. Seriously, I know more about my life than you do so shut the fuck up. Ugh, my muscles hurt I have been shaking so bad I am that mad. Seriously some people just dont know when to take the hint that someone doesn't want to talk to them anymore. Are people seriously that stupid? Anyways, im so done for the night. Im going to try to go to bed now, maybe i will have dreams about how the stupid people get whats coming to them.

Babe, I love you and I thank you for always speaking to me with respect, even if you sometimes joke in a disrespectful way I know you love me and care about me. Take care of yourself and have pleasent dreams love I will talk to you in the morning.

Day 95

Baby! My arm hurts so bad. Not really hurts but is so uncomfortable. And you are such a nerd i love it! Im tired so im gonna curl up and dream that i am with you love.

Day 94

<p>Visiting at a friends house with her sweet little babies. Been a really long day, got my new bc installed... installed that's a weird way to think about it. But anyways its uber painful if i move the wrong way. So yeah not too much to say tonight. Got to talk to my baby lots.

I love you babe but sometimes you can be a big meanie. I love you lots though anyways. I cannot wait to talk to you on webcam tomorrow sleep well. Take care!

Day 93

Long boring day, feels like it just dragged on and on. I am so tired right now. But I cannot fall asleep for the life of me. Watching a really funny/sad anime right now that is really good and then I really want to watch full metal alchemist. But I dont want to watch it if i can't curl up next to Justin. Which I really want to do right now, I love him soooo much and i competely miss him right now totally.

Baby! I loves you, I loves you. I miss you, I miss you. I wants to curl up next to you and never leave your side. You are my whole world and I will never let you go. I hope you are sleeping well and taking care of yourself. Talk to you tomorrow loves.

Day 92

So its official that Facebook hates my computer, every other site workes just fine, but facebook is super slow and makes my computer freeze. Im watching a really sad anime, it has super funny moments but its allready made me cry once. Not much to report today, applied for three different jobs so we will see what happens, my fingers are crossed.

Baby! I loves you! I hope you had a good workout at Pt and have an amazing day at work because you are my amazing man who I love with all my heart and we can make it through anything. Kisses and Hugs baby, I will hold you tonight in my dreams and hope you feel my love while you work.

Day 91

Omg im so frustrated right now. Just applied for a job and it took forever and my computer was being difficult and didn't want to type anything! Blah! Im too worked up right now so this is all fr tonight.

Thank you my manly man for having a steady job to support your habits, a good work ethic, and amazing motivation. You are my inspiration as i blunder through application after application because the job i get will not only support me but will help us financially. I love you my manly man.

Day 90

It has been 90 long days since I was last in the presence of the man I love. It has only been an hour since I last saw his smiling face, but I miss him as much today as I do the day he left. I miss him with my whole heart and soul, so much that I don't think I could miss him more if I tired... but I know thats a lie, I could miss him a whole lot more, but I get to see him over skype and talk to him everyday so the missing isn't as great as if he was deployed because I get to see him and talk to him I fool myself into a sort of fantasy where he is here and then I dont have to miss him at all. My words are confusing even me at this point, so I do not blame you if you are lost. I love my man with my whole heart and soul and I thank the gods for the technology of today that enable me to see and speak to him. Being in love with an army man is not easy, but I love him, and he has a job to do so I am here to support him. He got all caught up in his schooling today, I am so proud of him. He is really taking the initiative and getting what he needs to done when he needs to. He had enough time after finishing his homework that we got to watch a couple of episodes of bleach together over skype before he went to pt. I know its silly but its the little moments like that that make me the happiest. I did have a mini panic attack when my speakers went haywire, but it all got fixed. I think I would have broken down if my skype broke. Not really hearing from him the three days when his computer broke was horrible and I dont want to do that again. The job hunt is not going so great, I have applied at a couple of different places but I havn't heard back from anyone yet. Its very discouraging. I wish I could just walk into a place, say I wanna work here, and then have an interview on the spot so the managers saw me for a person and not just a piece of paper which does in no way show my qualifications for a job. I am getting very mad, especially since almost everything is online these days, there is even less person to person contact. Anyways, thats my little frustrations for the day, minus the breakdown of sexual frustration in the shower this afternoon. lol.

Hey baby, I really wish you would read this blog sometimes but I know you would just be rolling your eyes and calling me hopeless, just another thing I love about you. I love seeing you wrapped up in my fleece blanket, I send all my positive thoughts your way and hope you can feel my warmth surrounding you. And im really happy that you had an amazing nights sleep last night, I happy! lol, I love you baby and I hope your day at work goes swimmingly. Take care of yourself love.

Day 89

Today was an interesting day to say the least. I slept in for a little bit, if you call lying in bed until 8 sleeping in... its better than the usual 7-7:30 I get up though and then I dont really sleep until then I wake up at 6-6:30 and roll over until the 7's time. But today I made it until 8, then I got up and messaged baby but he was out so I did some facebook browsing. Then a couple hours later he was online and I helped him do his Biology homework, it was so much fun! And um, then he had homework to do so I tried looking for a job, I found a perfect one but it was too far away from where I live so I was majorly dissapointed about that. And then me and baby were talking and we got into a mini tiff because my Virgo brain went into overdrive like it always does and I don't know how to turn it off. lol, but we are all good now, he is working on a test right now. So I have my mic on mute so my typing doesn't bother him (I love skype!). And of course he is blasting music which I totally dont get. But whatever, I have to have complete silence in order to study. This just goes to show when we live together we will be studying in seperate rooms unless were helping each other out or nothing will ever get accomplished. lol. Um, lets see what else, I all of a sudden got uber tired... Like yawns are coming on and my eyes got heavy. I talked to mommy lots to today, and its day 89 which means tomorrow is 90 then only 10 more days until we are in the tripple digits... thats scary but at least time has been passing semi quickly.

I have had alot of people viewing my blog lately, thank you all of you. I am guessing half of the views are for the Stone sour song lyrics I posted a while back and thats cool, but if you are reading it for more than just that one go ahead and follow and leave a comment if you like. =)

Baby! Im super sorry about earlier with the little tiff and all, you are right again (as much as I hate to admit it) I am too paranoid for my own good. But at least we can laugh about it right? Im working on making my head do what I want it to and not what it wants to do, but I havn't found the perfect way to yet. Im thinking im going to have to get out the diary again and burn it when its full. Anywho, im so happy your getting your homework done babes, take care of yous you know I love you always and forever. I can't wait to see you in person again and kiss you and hold you and run away from you when you try to do something devilish. lol. Its rare that im on webcam with you as I write this so im just going to end with a good night and sweet dreams my love.

Day 88

Its been a really rough day and all I have to say is I better get some damn birth control in my system fast or im going to go bitch crazy on someone. I hate my rollercoaster emotions. TOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! My head has way to much running though it and im just so drained.

I love you baby, glad you had fun hanging out with the guys. I hope your schoolwork goes well and you get everything taken care of. I will chat at ya tomorrow love.

Day 87

So I felt so ucky yesterday but today I am feeling much much better. I have no idea what I caught but im so happy it only lasted a little over a day. My stomach is still a little sore but I think thats from throwing up and Im finally getting tired again after sleeping for probably 18 hours yesterday. I got my facebook albums all caught up and watched this hilarious anime Justin told me about, I wish I would have listened to him sooner, despite the obnoxiously large breatsted and often bare anime chicks, it was just super funny. And I got all my finals done today, Im so glad my teachers were so understanding and let me turn everything in a day late. So tomorrow I start the official process of finding a job. I have a game plan allready, I am going to apply to at least five places online per day and im going to print out ten resumes that I want passed out after a weeks time. I think that should help alot with the whole finding a job process, and now that everything is apply online anyways, im really hoping i can find one or two places that will hire me. Since I don't have any more schooling I can put my full effort into it and do 100 percent on the job. Oh, and baby got his sheets today and said he really liked them so that makes me uber happy! I was so worried he wasn't going to like them because they are a weird type of fabric. But I did good =)

Baby! You are so adorable, wrapped up in a blanket and making funny faces at me. I know the day started off icky, but everything turned out really good in the end. Im so tired now I wish you were here so I could pass out next to your warmth and in your loving arms. Im so glad we get to talk as much as we do, and I only wish I could do more for you. Dont worry, i will find a good job and save us up alot of money for the wedding and such. Baby, you are my whole world, now and forever you are mine and I am yours.

Day 86

Im sick so im keeping this short. Missed my finals today and feel like crap. Thank you baby for talking to me as long as you did, it really helped make me feel a little better. I loves you baby, have a good day at work and i will talk to u tomorrow l.

Day 85

So its been a long day, I found out three of the people I care very much about are having tests done on them, one is having her heart tested and that scares the shit out of me. I hope that she is ok. Tomorrow is my last day of school and then I have to find a job and I just have to say im so glad to be done with finals. Anyways, I dont really feel like posting much tonight, Im tired and im just going to head to bed. Bad news takes alot out of you.

Baby, thank you for being my strong shoulder to lay my head against, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you in my life. Just being there to listen is such a comfort to me. Thank you for everything. My love for you grows deeper and stronger everyday and that will never change. I am so in love with you. Take care of yourself love and have a great day.