So it has been a really long time since I last blogged, and all i have to say is that I have not really wanted to write anything. But i think it's time for an update. I am no longer in Bremerton, my friend had her beautiful baby girl and is with family right now. I am home, debating on what to do with my life next. Justin and I are still together even though we have our rough patches, especially with him having to go to Germany so soon. I miss him tons and I really hope I will be able to see him before he leaves. Even if I don't see him, I will still fight my hardest to make our relationship work. I love him so much, and he loves me. So with that I say we have some sort of a fighting chance.
I am looking into going to IADT in Seattle for interior design. It is something that i have always had an interest in, and something that I think i would enjoy doing. In middle school through part of high school I was seriously looking into it as a career choice but then something happened that discouraged me, so I gave it up. I can't even remember what that discouraging thought was so now I am back to it. When I get bored I doodle out room designs and go online furniture hunting for what I would put in each room. I can spend hours on the Sims decorating a house and then never play the family again once the house is done. I draw out designs for furniture I would want put in my room and before I re-arrange it I always draw out a game plan. It entertains me so I think its something that I would be good at. Plus i could always use it to go into party planning or wedding planning or something like that. I think i will have to live within commuting distance of a large city in order for this to be a career option. But i defiantly think that is do-able.
As far as Germany is concerned, the school does have options to study abroad that I will be taking full advantage of. I will save up money to visit Justin as often as possible. I'm so scared about our upcoming separation. We are separated now, but with the ocean between us it is going to be really hard. However, really hard does not mean impossible and I am determined to see this through. I already have a plan of what i want to send him every month. =D It doesn't matter if he wants me to send him stuff or not. He is getting a little box every month and tons of letters because when I write, I write a lot. But seriously, we had a deep conversation last night and it leaves me more determined than ever to make things work out. He is having a rough time right now and I wish I could be there to hold him and help him through it all. I know that's not in the cards for us right now, but someday I will be able to do that and much more for him. For now, i can just be here, supporting him through it all.
On a side note, My room is re-arranged with the larger bed in here so I wont be kinking my neck when I sleep anymore which is a really good thing. My mom tours the school tomorrow and will talk to a financial advisor, so hopefully that all works out, and If we have time we are going to stop by the housing center to see what the dorms will look like. I guess there really isn't all that much to talk about after all. And here i was thinking that I was going to have this monster of a post to write but I'm all blogged out. I guess I will just say goodnight.
